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Re: making the silent battle...not. 14 Dec 2009 02:08 #34432

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silentbattle wrote on 08 Dec 2009 13:13:

Just took another difficult step...said goodbye to a woman who I'd been friends with. It was hard, not just because we were attracted to each other (which we were), but because we weren't even meeting, we were just talking on the phone, as friends, so I could justify it...and she really needed someone to be there for her, and I liked that being me.

But, I have no doubt that I did the right thing. I just wish I didn't feel so grimy, like I'm abandoning a friend, while doing the right thing.


Wow Wow Wow!!!!

When I read your post, I said to myself this guy doesn't even realize it, but he is mamesh Yosef Hatzadik!!!!!

This is in a small way like the nisyaon of Yosef HaTzadik.......Vaymoen with the shalsheles

And u feel grimy, u little Yosef'l? ( I know I know its not easy telling someone anyone who needs us that we can't help them)

BTW warmest welcome to the Guardani Brigade! The toughest group of holiest warriors in world!!!

With tremendous love and Prayers for your continued success

Noorah
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A Tzadik is he who continues to  bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 14 Dec 2009 11:56 #34505

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Kep up the great work SB. You must be doing something right cuz you got a response from Noorah, something i havent got since the first day ive been here. ;D :D
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 14 Dec 2009 12:54 #34521

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imtrying25 wrote on 14 Dec 2009 11:56:

Kep up the great work SB. You must be doing something right cuz you got a response from Noorah, something i havent got since the first day ive been here. ;D :D


Oy Gevald ??? ??? Is this true ??? ???

A million apologies dearest Chaver Imtrying and warmest Shalom Alichem to this holy forum.

With all the love in the world to all the holy warriors here

Noorah the smallest from the house of Amram
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A Tzadik is he who continues to  bounce back after he hits bottom, even a hundred times !!!!!Rav Don Segal Shlita
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 14 Dec 2009 14:20 #34536

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Thank you, Noorah...more and more, I'm starting to realize what an honor it is to be part of this brigade of holy warriors...and truth be told, we're ALL fighting a silent battle, in a way, but that doesn't make it any less vital.

And I love the phrase "the guardani brigade." Makes me smile every time I see it.

B"H Hashem is still helping me be strong, I'm moving forward, going back and saying final goodbyes, even to people that I haven't spoken to in a while, so I know that it's over and done with. Deleting emails by the hundreds (sometimes, by the thousands), as I clear out this part of my life.
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 14 Dec 2009 16:39 #34599

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KEEP ON DELETING I MEAN KEEP ON ROCKING SB. YOUR HEADED FOR GREAT THINGS!!!
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 14 Dec 2009 16:44 #34603

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WOW!
GSBG!

You're doing a spring cleaning of your life
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 14 Dec 2009 18:12 #34632

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Even better - a pesach cleaning...where's the bleach, so I can make sure that it's not Ra'oi l'achilas kelev?  :D
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 18 Dec 2009 08:47 #35706

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Borush Hashem, things are still going well - nothing really new to report, though I guess that's good news!

I find myself being more aware of my urge to look at women, or even smile at them or talk to them - not because I think anything's going to happen, but just out of a habit; and not a good one. I can see it, and I'm working on it, so I think that's a step in the right direction!
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 18 Dec 2009 10:02 #35739

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NO NEWS IS GOOD NEWS ROCKSTAR. And the first step in getting healed is recognizing the sickness. So your one huge step ahead of this ntcase. Keep on rollin. We all behind you cheerin you on.
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 21 Dec 2009 02:58 #36290

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I'm still astonished by how much this community has done for me. I cam here for support, and aside from stopping the issue that I needed to, I've gained a totally new awareness of how important our yesod is, a real awareness, instead of the intellectual awareness that I'd heard for so many years.

And like so many others have pointed out, this board is one of the few places in this world where people are actually grappling with this issue. Kinda ironic, when you think about it!  ;D
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 22 Dec 2009 23:39 #37046

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I got on the bus today, and it was like a sudden epiphany of freedom - I realized that "hey, I don't have to look around and see which girls are pretty!"
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RE:making the silent battle 22 Dec 2009 23:43 #37047

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I hope it lasts. I wish i'd always thinks the same
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 22 Dec 2009 23:53 #37051

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Ha - me, too  :D

I think the interesting thing was that it actually came to me as a kind of, "huh...y'know, I really don't have to do this." Kinda like realizing that there was this chore that I has scheduled every day, that I suddenly realized was optional all along.

You mean I don't have to take out the garbage? Cool, I can deal with that...
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 23 Dec 2009 00:44 #37071

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Oy i love you SB. So much positivity and cheerfulness. Keep rocking. And im sorry you still gotta take out the garbage. And i mean NOW!!!!
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Re: making the silent battle...not. 23 Dec 2009 01:43 #37085

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Do I have to? Oh, alright, fine grumble grumble You try taking out the garbage right now, with all the snow and ice...

And it's you that helps me stay positive!
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