I have passed the 90 day milestone again. I am very happy. Not the thrill of new found clean living that I experienced a couple of years ago when I first joined.
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It is however, a cautious deep-seated good feeling that I have made it this far and believe that if I continue with these attitudes and actions, sobriety will
with G-d's help, hopefully follow.(although I have felt this before)
When I started my newest trip on my journey, 95/96 days ago I used Taphsic- I felt particularly vulnerable and although I am not a big fan of Taphsic for the long run, it did help put me on the clean dry ground in those early most challenging days. I did not renew Taphsic and do not plan to.
My efforts are: to Daven to Hashem- includes giving the fight over to him - this is done not only at minyan but at any challenging time. Reading supportive materials, working on chesed, particularly working on close relationships by being attentive and a good listener/being there at the moment, trying to anticipate what another might appreciate/need/want and trying to fulfill that. Be aware of any anxiety that might make running to P(drug of choice) more probable. In may seem odd but when I first joined GYE I was unaware of how I was not truly connecting to others. Also, I did not grasp how much anxiety can play a part in this struggle. In fact, if you would have asked my if I am a nervous person and if that is in any way detrimental to me, I would have responded that I am no more nervous than any one person. I have learned and grown much on my journey because of GYE Very important- to sacrifice my interests in various topics on the web, like news for example. Such web surfing, that appears on the outset as innocent, is probably not so innocent and has proven countless times to ultimately lead to a fall.
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I am so happy to be on a good way as Rosh Hashana approaches. I am humbled to be a part of a group of guys who truly aspire and
put in any and all efforts to live in a healthy wholesome worthwhile way.
You all want to truly live
May we all be granted loads of
siyata dishmaya and be inscribed in the Book of Life.