Josephsbrother will thank Our Maker in 5 days, 90 days a beginning of a new lust free lifestyle.  At that time I will not be on 90 day chart. So in my Refuge and Fortress, and Shield I start on my 85th day moving to a better life.  Life is full of ifs, yet each choice changes the if into a direction, as we keep choosing better choices we can expect to reap a harvest reward, this is apart of His promises.  We may have to wait, but when the benefit of His presence comes, it will be worth it all.

Day 87: In three days 90 will be reached, but this is not an end, it is a season, it is a beginning. Whatever I had previously secretly taken, it should be corrected, restored, only the One can make it right, yet I will give my best effort.  Every weakness among men where I am presence, I can be a watchman to declare a better choice.  Hopefully a few will be wise, and take correction.  It must be kindly, and-humblest shared as a man who made wrong choices too.  With much prayer for many do not see m. as wrong.

Day 89:  One day from three months, and on the first day I can get to the post office this next week, a first portion of $90. Will be sent to Guard your eyes, on behalf of Josephsbrother.  The rest will be sent in our Maker, as soon as it is available.  After 90 days more posting should be here.  A

90 days, and today the first portion of a $90 vow shall hopefully sent by mail.  Hope to send $20, and as our blesses my work so I can finish my vow to Him. Tehillim 90 has been my mediation for the day, it worth reading on our 90th day.  Many weeds seed memories to continue to never choose again. I choose someone better, I choose my family, my new friends here, life, purity, every choice we make for better, is sure to have our Creator to confirm the works of our hands.

Day 91: Today a wife choose to wear revealing clothing,I prayed, received my work assignment from her, I found every sound a reason to look away, I look above her forehead to keep eye contact that way, in the purity of HaShem receive and breath it out to keep receiving of purity as I had to relate to her, thanked my Maker that He made the female form, and said to Him there, you made this wife to rest me, she is my bosses wife, a daughter of Noah, and Adam. Keep me in your will, and let me get to work, after a small test I was viewing plants with no stress.

Day 92: I work hard, doing all things as to HaShem, bless the One, my Infinite Friend, now knowing lust may draw me away, I work mainly for my One, then I can say and live in mind, I can not come down, I will not leave my work to lust, I have higher purpose.  The sleep of a laboring man is sweet.

Day 92: My wife thanks me for listening to her  and the things that she into that make her day special.

Praying for each one I saw at opening list.  Easy day 93.  Great news for me, one of my owners who gave me his edible landscaping project told me why he wanted me to have his project, it is a blessing, for each day I try to improve mph work, and I do my job more and as if I do it for HaShem the One.

Day 96: Hope all had a good Shabbat.  I had great quality time with wife, sharing, it is awesome when my wife and I have such spiritual talks.  I have One I can go to for all my purifying.  I have been trained in unwholesome relating methods, and now with our MakerI can be lead to a better lifestyle of communication. Enjoyed quality time with my boys too, family is so vital to me.

As I read, this is a "journey," 90 days is part of it, yet it has plenty of chance for us to choose m. again. After a day when some jobs did not come through, and a new job was so good, but had a bad dream last night, as I choose right with challenge.  I woke up, to spend time with wife, and right timing is very good.  Who needs m. For if married the relationship only get more special if we do't make the wrong choices.  As I review the day, I saw sometimes my mind could have been firmer with flash backs. While I put them out of my head, and they when easy, they needed a firmer hand, and while this time the timing was super for my marriage, I am on a journey and past choices leave me with many flash banks to deal with, I think my own adversary wants to make sure I in it for the journey, and the answer is yes!+.  I can't have played with fire, and expect my body to say, I will not remind you of your past choices. So friends Warning alert. Day 97

Day 98: A long day of work, a tired wife, we had a couple of intimate days, now, just a lot of hugging, and it is special, to not always want it all,  the simple sharing of the day, the sharing of what each is learning, what the day was like, what the kids did for her, made her a smoothie, young men choosing to carry an extra load, when mom was not feeling well.  She know I am not into correcting her much, and to have a wife remind me, she is not a weak wife, not hear what her husband wants, hopes for, dreams of.  I glad she continues to seek to improve herself, and I wish never to break her, but to give only that which today can keep her inspired to grow and be all the woman she can be.

Thank you for your inspiring words!

For me, when tempted I stay away, but if I am not tempted, I enjoy talking to grandpas and grandmas.  I get my communication skills with grandma women growing.  I hear stories of inspiration, success.  I enjoy hearing their mottos.  I find a way to blest secretly into families here. Day 100, finding a way to right some wrongs.  Yet if the beauty is the direct link to my job, for my family.  With prayer I find the info and move forward

Day 101: 90 days is a great aim. Yet in some ways it may get lonely. If you have extra help by phone with your friend here it will be your extra blessing.  Yet if your lot is more simple, we have our One special partner, and the knowledge of direction can only be know if we each hold a very close relationship,

Day 102: Happy Shabbat, and great memories of this Purim.