I saw something this week which I wanted to share with you all which gave me some insight into my issues.  I now know that I've been making decisions in life based on my emotions rather than my values and well thought out decisions.  I've chosen to do things which hurt myself and my family, rather than using my brain and my better judgement to "becharta bechaim".

Imagine the scene....

A regular house, with some small kids and a pet dog.  The dog's bowl is on the floor full of the dog's gourmet food (rice and duck no less).  The little boy in the house decides to use the potty and brings it in to the kitchen (he likes company).  He does his business, and the parents, busy with the little ones and house chores, forget to take the potty up.  Just for a few minutes.

The dog is faced with the choice of a pot of excrement and a bowl of something actually good for him.  What choice do you think he made?

Same choice as me.

Now I've got to clean up the mess.