Before I begin my story, I would like to express my thanks to those that manage and run this site as it is a tremendous zchus and a huge help for the tzibur.
I am currently a yeshiva bochur in my early twenties (getting ready to start the "parsha"
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). My story begins about ten years ago, when I was just about bar mitzvah age. I'll keep it short and only write the important details. Baruch hashem, I never looked at p***n on the Internet etc. but I did have a very creative imagination. I would think about Many devarim assurim...
At that time, I did not know the severity of the issurim involved in "just thinking" about these thoughts. As far as I can recall I don't think I did mast***e, however I would wake up at night to "wet dreams", as I was mz"l. During the course of my high school career I began to realize the Chomer ha'issur that i was dealing with and I eventually stopped thinking and fantasizing about lustful thoughts.
B"H I was able to stop myself, (on my own) and by the time I was in 11th -12th grade, I stopped these machshovos assuros.
However, even now, quite a few years later I still have problems with Keri at night and I still have "wet dreams" (most of the time I don't remember the dreams, but on occasion I do, and sometimes, they are not so clean- so I obviously still have not been able to abolish those thoughts completely. I understand that what happens when I sleep is more or less beyond my control, but I was just wondering if anyone else shared in my experience and if you have some advice or chizuk.
Thank you very much