yeah, well, for years i ran away from my problems. and then something hit me in the face. there was this girl i knew and we had a short relationship. it didnt work because i thought i was homosexual at the time. when i decided to try and get out of it, i started flirting with her, but still was not entirely comfortable. we're being set up on shidduch dates, and i know im not anywhere near ready for that commitment and i dont think she really is either. anyway, she told me she was leaving for the summer and that i was to meet her at a trendy cafe at 8 that night. then she dropped the big one, the thing that made everything become clear. "man up." i got it and i met her and that was that. we're going out pretty regularly for some months now. but "man up." it meant that i was supposed to stard challenging my issues instead of forever trying to run away. and i think that is sometimes true for everyone here. so.....MAN UP!
