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Re: For how long by now? 09 Sep 2012 03:45 #144789

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Who is "Rebbe"?
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 09 Sep 2012 05:50 #144790

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Bh today was my 95th day!!!
Its a little strange, its being so easy lately....By the days without triggers, its realy easy to stay clean,
it looks like the fantasies are going away!!

Re: For how long by now? 09 Sep 2012 11:42 #144799

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@Dov: you are.
@Gevura: yep, I've thought about that...
@Tamid: congrats. and have a gitten tumid :D
@TMC: we will miss ya, TMC! btw, dont forget to put 5 dollarim to tzedoka

@all: today will be day number 59. Yesteday by slichos i asked haShem, to five me some che"n in his eyes for the che"n days i have...I will spot for some time to go online, see ya all after sukkos!
have a ksiva vechasima toyva! wish ya'll meaningful and tearful prayers.
byebye,

Re: For how long by now? 09 Sep 2012 14:06 #144809

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And Dov, before you complain (and I know you want to), don't forget that anyone that teaches you something is a Rebbe.
And if you aren't here to teach, who is?

Re: For how long by now? 11 Sep 2012 02:53 #144870

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This is not teaching - it is donating blood.
The days He has given me so far are....only one: today. And He has given it to me 5667 times. And the only day I ask him for right now is the rest of this one.
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 11 Sep 2012 02:58 #144871

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Used a calculator just now, for I have never counted the days up ever before (to my recollection). Those who make a big deal about big numbers just don't get it yet. And i certainly do not really get 'it' yet, either. Hashem is not nearly through with me and Tatteh tatzileinu mishgiyos!
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 25 Sep 2012 12:22 #145286

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dov wrote on 09 Aug 2012 01:36:

Nebulamud!! Wow!! You are back!

I missed you, I missed your bizarre and cute username...and I just missed the point of your post. Oh, you feel exhausted after falling. Right...so:

Please tell me -

Is the exhaustion you refer to from your fall, or is the exhaustion from those 80 days of relentless fighting against your obsession/habit?

And I am back again dov! I was referring above to being exhausted over both struggling for 80 days AND falling over by OBSESSION/ADDICTION(and habit by extension)

Re: For how long by now? 27 Sep 2012 14:57 #145320

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short update.

77 days beezras haShem.

Hope ya'll had a gmar chatima toyvo.

yiddeeeeeeen!!

Re: For how long by now? 28 Sep 2012 18:37 #145382

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NebulaMud wrote on 25 Sep 2012 12:22:



Nebulamud!! Wow!! You are back!

I missed you, I missed your bizarre and cute username...and I just missed the point of your post. Oh, you feel exhausted after falling. Right...so:

Please tell me -

Is the exhaustion you refer to from your fall, or is the exhaustion from those 80 days of relentless fighting against your obsession/habit?

And I am back again dov! I was referring above to being exhausted over both struggling for 80 days AND falling over by OBSESSION/ADDICTION(and habit by extension)

Nu, to me it makes little difference (really no practical difference at all) if someone is struggling and 'holding his breath' - or masturbating his brains out to schmutz. Either way, we get covered with mud, as tzaddikim have said (regarding normal people, and not even addicts) - and it is a death knell to sobriety and the Good Life.

Exhaustion is yucky, may Hashem spare me from it today and help me just surrender the lust I have and give it all up for today, no strings attached, trust Him and get on with real living, Amen! I need my energy for real living, not for silly battles. I can't afford to be battleworn.


"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 04 Oct 2012 12:51 #145539

hi guys im back.i lost focus bc i was so busy and a fell a few times.i dont know how mant about 4 and if i had access i would have pulled out....im doing much better i sat down yesterday and did some 12 ster 'chazara' hope your all doing well.it wont be long b4 i will be in israel bh and i wont have any contact probably..
how r u guys ? rt it likes like your doing great!!!

Re: For how long by now? 05 Oct 2012 08:55 #145582

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yooop bechasde haShem i am takke doing well. 85 dayz.

baruch haShem matzliach in shmiras hamachshovo (from pritzusdikke hirhurim.). have still to work on shmiras eynaim.

chatzlocho

Re: For how long by now? 05 Oct 2012 08:56 #145583

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We're moving right along, b"H. And you?
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 05 Oct 2012 13:25 #145592

had a rel bad day yesterday but i called someone up and we talked and i feel much better,more hopeful

Re: For how long by now? 05 Oct 2012 16:57 #145607

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You are working some kind of program or something besides just making calls to feel better, though, right? I feel sorry for sober sitting ducks...

Stay cool, bud 8)
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 10 Oct 2012 07:31 #145713

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If my heshbon is right, today is day number 90.

have a nice isru hag

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