well, let me wish you, dear "some guy", that it should happen bekoroyv.
hatzlocho.

Thank you for the support, RT.

pleasure =)

so whats your plan lemaase?

I love the name "some guy"

Welcome to GYE!

JustKeepGoing wrote on 27 Jul 2012 01:08:


That name can be read 2 different ways:
1. as in "just some guy..."
2. as in "you're really some guy!"

Anyhow welcome and hatzlacha!

MT

I was talking to "some guy" the other day and....

Hey guy! have a great shabbos!

Hashem Loves you

(don't worry about this also I go through the same thing, thinking Hashem hates me/he'll never forgive me for this- we need to try to fix our image of G-d otherwise its not Hashem "the Merciful and Loving G-d" it can c'v be Hashem "Out to Get you and you better listen to every word I say or suffer my wrath G-d" (Which one do you think he is in reality?)

Really I'm in the same boat, I read on Dr. Sorotzkins website that (he quoted a big rabbi) that we view G-d the same way we view our mothers, and if our parents were very critical of us while growing up that is how we can come to view Hashem. You and I both need to fix that way of looking at Him and Please whatever success you have in the area share it because you'd be helping me as well. :o

JustKeepGoing wrote on 27 Jul 2012 16:07:
All this is found the honestly worked 2nd step of any truly desperate addict.

Thank you all for the word of encouragment. I really don't think I veiw G-d the way I sometimes do because of my mother or father. My parents are REALLY supporting. I could do just about anything with my life and they would help me no matter what. I think I may view Him this way because that is how I have viewed myself for so many years. When ever I got a 98% on a test, I just had to find my one mistake, hoping that the teacher messed up instead of me. And because I am very smart, geting a 98% happened a lot. I guess my drive for perfection transfered form my schoolwork to my ideas about G-d. But no more! I am going to stay positive. No more lingering over every mistake and flaw. Just move on and do something productive.

I was laying in bed thinking of some really bad stuff and was close to going on some even worse websites, but instead I went here. Thank you all for making this site possible.

some_guy wrote on 29 Jul 2012 04:13:


Uh... that's not part of recovery. We need to surrender these lustful thoughts as soon as they start. Just staying with these thoughts stimulates our brain's pleasure center and keeps the addiction going.

yeee. techilat nefila - machshovo roo and hirhurey zenus.

Sorry I have not been on for a while. I have been having a difficult week. But I am not going to linger on it. I am going to think of the good things. I am seeeing a new theropist. He is easier to talk to than my old one, possibly because he is an orthadox jew. He have started doing an exercise with me that is going to break down the pathway in my brain that cause my impulses. So far, it is working. I still have some drive to M, but not as strong as befor. I am sure that between this website and him I can overcome this challange eventually.

Try reading "Feeling Good" by David Burns. It is commonly used to cure clinical depression.

Hello. I have not been doing so well. Most days I lay in bed for hours intil hunger makes me get up. I have been M and lookinjg at P allmost every day for more than a week. I had a better day today. I am going to try and post on here most nights befor I go to sleep. Just because that is a difficult time for me and getting my thoughtsa on this my help. I was wondering what some of you did for the TaPHsiC methed. I hope it my help but I feek like money does not mean enoghf to me to be an effective punishment for failing. Does anyone have any other suggestions?

Read Feeling Good by David Burns. It has been clinically proven to cure depression as effectively as therapy. Put it in the bathroom so that you will read a few minutes every day and you don't procrastinate. I have read your other posts, it's perfect for you.

some_guy wrote on 31 Aug 2012 02:26:


Yes, chaver. The TaPhsic thing may help you but no matter what, it is still just another convenient way to keep hiding and keep the fantasy of being able to beat this in secret on our own. Your kavod is not worth your life and your success....and anyway, it is never, ever a loss of kavod to open up sincerely about all the facts about ourselves to a clean person who understands. Have you tried speaking the facts about your behavior over openly and clearly with a clean person?