some_guy wrote:
I hate myself. I am to weak and pathetic to deal with this problem that Hashem has given me. I am just disgusting and always will be, because I am too pathetic to stop. I want to just kill myself. If I am too pathetic to deal with my own problems, how can I ever become a rabbi who can help others. I have just given up.
I pretty much disagree with everything you just wrote
1. Even if you hate yourself, Hashem still loves you (dearly)
2. Weak? maybe. Pathetic, no.
3. You are not disgusting and will never be.
4. You don't want to kill yourself, You would much rather find a way to deal with the problem
5.
how can I ever become a rabbi who can help others. You've never seen a fat doctor?
6. You have't given up
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, if you did you would have not posted and would have killed yourself (which Baruch Hashem you did not do)
Perhaps when you get this demon under control (by using the apropriate tools that work for you), you will be able to help people in a way that other cant because of your personal experience
Eli