Thanks you all for the incredible chizuk. Although the struggle on a daily basis is much much easier now, Im more scared than ever of the chas vishalom slip, its very scary but bezras Hashem I will stay strong.
The summer in my parents house has always been an inevidble free fall, being that hey hgave all channels of cable. Hodu Lashem Ki Tov I think chazal would say that I was zoche to a true teshuva, because this summer I was in the same exact situation, but because of this sight, and my having been clean for so long, I barely even had any desire to turn the tv on. MIRACLES DO HAPPEN, but tefilla for many years brought me to this sight and ultimate freedom.
Chasdei