To be a Sofer STaM, you have to be creative and talented. Yet its these types of people who have the worst problems with imagination, curiosity, etc.
Any one out there who is a Sofer who has struggled with this? Perhaps its similar to baalei tefillah for the Yomim Noraim, where your issues may interfere with the kedusha meant for others....
Im not sure halacha is what I am asking to know about, as I'll probably get 23 psaks form 13 people.
Maybe I just want to know if anyone out there has struggled with the added guilt of saying 'Hareini Koiseiv Leshem Kedushas Mezuzoh" at the same time they are still on and off yenne Zach....