zalmandovid wrote on 15 Jun 2010 05:10:
I'm here.

Hey ZD,

You know where to find me I am here for YOU!

-Yiddle

gettin weak!!

was just in the bathroom a minute ago looking at "normal" magazines. im running on 5 hours of sleep and just got back from a horribly boring meeting that was 4 hours long!

someone help me~
i havn't fallen  yet, just a slip
i  think i'm gonna take a nap... :'( :'(  = i have to dodge the pain

Hi confidence,

I am here if you need someone to talk to....Yiddle2@gmail.com

-Yiddle

doin much better - naps are absolutely underated in this war! ;D 

Confidence wrote on 15 Jun 2010 23:06:
Wow! Now that's an underrated eitza. Thanks.

Maybe

means that the pain is sometimes the very fact that we are not taking good care of ourselves, itself. And maybe that's what you dodged by taking a nap.

An integral part of my recovery is practicing not burning the candle on both ends and accepting my limitations in more and more respects. And that allows mw to finally accept my true responsibilities fully! Counter-intuitive? Pfffttt!

I think we need some 911 here.  See last post: www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=2605.45.

Im condused: for you or him?

This is my first time posting on the site. Its necessary. I have been extremely careful for many months, and have b'h been fall free for about 22 months. I am feeling a strong pull to look at some things I shouldn't. I really need to be mechazek.

shmiras, firstly 22 months!!!!!!! May HBH allow us to reract your level!!!

youve been ouit of the ring of the yeser hara, for some reason youve been dragged in, and the yeser harea is going mental, someone once told me its like a dog, when you dont feed it it goes mental for food, ie with urges, howver it eventually calms down due o weakness and gets less strong, pherhaps your "dog" realises how ar youve come and is pushing an pushing oe final menatl last cry to feed it and onc more give it strenth...DO NOT!
DO NOT kid yourself about the consequeces of you looking at forbidden things
DO NOT kid yourself about the severity
DO NOT feed tthat yeser hara and get it stronger
DO    SOMETHING DRASTIC NOW TO GET AWAY, go for a walk, jog, beis midrash, book a ice meal as a celebration for winning today, whatever you do, stay clear and alerat and understand the severity, perhaps make 2 lists, one the consequnces of falling the other of the mamash simcha in shamayim of you compleing this very difficult test....
im davening for yuou!

Thanks jamie -

B'H was a slip, caught it, went straight to gye and then turned off my computer. I think its time to be mechazek though. Im not as strong as i was in the beginning. Even though Ive been on this site hundreds of times in the past, Ive never been on the forums, but i see how special it is. Thanks for your tfillas. I have been unable to control myself from looking  recently in the street if i see someone...i need to push myself. im feeling that little opening being pulled open by the yezter hara where - its just a look - youd never do more than that! were not invincible... its time to push back again...

please let me know if this is a slip (i hope)
i have a long stretch of days clean from on-line p* and m*
just today started doing google searches for semi-errotic articles (no naked pictures) google setting on "safe"the stuff is about details of s* abuse cases

What does a YH want from a brother (any1 knows what I'm talking about) haven't I given him enough over the years, its time for him to let go, like I'm always told to do "jip let go, let go go go go)if he can't find new customers down here (due to GYE) perhaps he has no business in this world, time to make a mashkanta on him, who wants to help here
I just don't have the koach to fight him here anymore, its summer women dress like Capital P's and country season is 1 other klula we are cursed with, all this makes the cake really nice

I'm not feeling very well,I've slipped. I've been very sad for the last few days and I need some help. Please,is anyone out there?

Hi - I'm available by chat cleareyes613@gmail.com