The reason I asked is because I am definitely not strong enough. I am dead serious. It's a Chessed that I am not distracted by the women most of the time.
Whereas, all my history proves I am able to accomplish by my own best thinking and hard work was trying as hard as I could to get a little distracted by the bar-mitzvah or wedding I was attending! The women - whether I fought it or not - were clearly and by far, the overrriding main focus of my personal attention and thought.
To me, what is the difference between focusing totally on fighting the lust, or actually lusting? Very little in the long run. I see it as exactly like being chased by a rosho in a car: eventually I will get tired - he has a full tank of gas and I cannot run 300 miles. So why try at all? I need to get off the road, period. That's what I mean by surrender and giving up. Trying a totally different path than the one I was always on.
I do not know what you need to do.