Hello,

Well, you can never be immune to taiva.  I thought after being freaked out from being confronted by a cop on the spot during ***sturb**ion (see my previous post) and putting a big picture of Rav Moshe by my , I would be in the clear and never have to fight my taiva again.  Well, I had a field day on the computer last night. 
The fall came because I was feeling a little depressed and bored because I was not motivating myself to begin preparing for teaching.  So I acted out; big time, for about an hour and a half.  I was steeped in taiva having a great time.  youtube videos galore.  Then it hits you.  When the taiva runs out and you can't fall asleep and it's two in the morning.  And you say to yourself, wow, I could have been so much more productive tonight, and instead this!  How am I gonna feel in the morning!?  I bet you it's gonna feel terrible.  And it did.  Boy was it hard to wake up.  I basically missed all of shachris and in Elul that's not a great thing. 

Anyway, the morning after is always the worst.  Your hand is still clutched in the mas*urba*ion position, your cheeks are beat red and you just feel downright tired.
I would guess this is about the 2,000th time I have fallen in my life.  Wow.  Well, as usual after a fall I am feeling completely resolved never to fall again. 
I signed up for  and I am now committing myself to, bli neder, post every single day on this forum.  The post will usually focus on the a chizuk nugget I read from GYE.
I have confidence that I can get on a really good run here and get my life headed in the right direction!

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The Alshich says the Shem Cham and Yafes did not face Noach when Noach was not clothed.  This is because the human face is created בצלם אלוקים and should not be exposed to indecent things. 

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