Dude, let me remind you of something someone once wrote:
"11 days. this is saving my life .I hope this isn't just premature excitement but with this forum it is feeling easier . H' please help me not to lower my guard.Keep me strong! I'm finding it diificult not to think of a large number of days"
In response Guard HaAnav wrote, "Don't think about 90 days. Ask Hashem for help one day at a time and he'll give it to you... Like the maan in the dessert. Each day it came for that day only."
A few days later, "14 days! i'm feeling better than i have in a long time. i feel like i'm going somewhere. one day at a time. H' help me finish today!"
You rode this one day at a time theme to 27 days...
Seems like you need to stop thinking about getting a string together you need to stop thinking negatively and start doing what has always worked for you here: one hour at a time one minute at a time...like bardichev says one hour...when the triggers start triggering rush to this network...spend time going through the stories, the handbooks, the lessons...live for the minute youre in and make that minute a good one...