Ya know what? I was walking in the street today and something SO momentous hit me today! Really! Something so earth shakingly big I felt blessed to realize it! I'm not sure if anyone else has been enlightened to this, but this news is BIG TIME and I wanna share this secret with friends. It's powerful stuff that is worth thinking about. So here's what I realized..





You ready?







Women aren't going away.





That's right,





they're here to stay.





Pretty ones. Short ones. Tall ones.. All of'em.
Every day, all my life, they'll be here.






And,...







They we're put here by a kind creator, who has purpose for them too...







But then,...







Something else hit me pretty hard..





Something even MORE AWESOME!!!...









I'M A YID!








That's right!



ICH BIN A YID! DEM OIBERSHTEN'S A KIND!




YES! ME PERSONNALY! I'M THE FIRST BORN, MOST UNIMAGINABLY PRECIOUS GEM, TO THE HOLY CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE!!!



EVRYONE(!) sees how the face of a child looks like the parents.




I RESEMBLE HASHEM!! HE'S IN ME!






I'm living proof right here and now of an eternal promise to an eternal people.






From as far back as Avraham...






YES ME!!!.... I'M THE LINK IN THE CHAIN!!!







Wow! Yes me! I'm that one!



My soul, and the souls of all my people are ..

Forever.
YES! THIS IS TRUE!!!


I'M BUILT(!) Of miracles...
They're in my genes!




I should be so attached to the negative, selfish and purely physical parts of the world and people around me!?!?!?




Who taught me that!?!?





That's not me!?!






The two just don't go together AT ALL!







The very fiber of my being contains direct access to the greatest infinite spirit of strength, hope, and real miracles the world has ever known.



NO JOKE!!!




When I close my eyes with sincerity, nothing has stopped me from connecting to the POWER of our Holy ancestry.... NOTHING!







There's passions in the world you say???  SO WHAT! I'm a yid!





I ALSO have passions. I LUST for a happy family, a good world, and I slowly see MY (G-D's) passions being fulfilled!




I know you want the same...






The world looks EXCITING... Right?  OOOOOHH. AAHHHH..





SO WHAT!




Such a holy being as me; part of a nation of which HASHEM HIMSELF(!) says of us that "We are testimony that He exists" (we are ALL walking revelations of divine MAJESTY) could really have a long lasting, true connection with.......   

GASHMIUS!?!?!




WHAT?!?!




It can't be; it'll never be. It's scientifically, metaphysically and just plain rationally IMPOSSIBLE.



A parent raises a child. ALL of us here are a "ben olam haboh"! It doesn't mean we will 'get there'...



it means olam haboh, (YES TIMELESS HEAVEN ITSELF), is 'raising' us...

RIGHT NOW! Nurturing us... Tending to us..



Fire doesn't bend down to enter the waters of the 'mayim rabim'!



It's diametrically the polar opposite! They have zero relevance, one to the other.




Fire (and the fire of my soul)  inherently reaches UP!




My body does indeed burn sometimes, but compared to the endlessness and sanctity of the accomplishing soul, it's felt even LESS than an ambulance passing in the very far distance in the night...




(Much of this was based on various parts of ch's 18-50 in Tanya, and just pushit yiddeshe life experience of sobriety in a very busy city, with BH a growing, happy, not so wealthy family)

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to a fellow tanya learner-bottoms up!

:-) well, not too much, but yes! It's great to connect here. Gratitude is everything.. What I've read of 'yechidas reflections' is also good stuff.. Today I was actually GRATEFUL to be triggered in the kids park.. BH on automatic pilot I've gotten used to not staring, so the moments of small excitement I feel are ALL directed towards my wife when the time comes.. Just another miracle for a previously rock bottom lust drunk!

"pukichsa yiddeshe life" Is suppose to be 'pushit yiddeshe life'

Serene smile wrote on 09 May 2011 06:56:

sounds like the secret of serenity, to accept things as they are.
if life seems like a "pukichsa", (what in the world is that?) then we just have to make the best of it




(kidding, if you type 'p u s h i t' then the system automatically converts it to kichsa, to avoid a certain vulgar term)

"f life seems like a "pukichsa", (what in the world is that?) then we just have to make the best of it
".  Amen

another bottoms up for a fellow recovering yiddy!

My gosh.. making it through aint easy, but consistency makes good habits. I'm TIRED today, acting out isn't an option though.. BH!