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Fed UP 31 Mar 2011 07:57 #102722

  • joe999
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Hi,
BTW this is a letter more to myself.
I've been trying to stop for so long. I've never been successful. I know it's wrong. I know it makes me depressed afterwards. I know it's stupid and I know how happy I would be if I stopped.
And after I fall, I'm good for a few days.
Then when the guilt has worn off, and the opportunity presents itself, the yetser horah strikes. Inevitably, he wins.
I don't know what to do anymore, but enough is enough. I'm not taking it anymore. This is going to be the time that I stop once and for all.  I am not going to do it anymore. period. end of story. it's just not something that I do anymore. This is a new me and the new me just doesn't do that.
B"N I'm going to try to post every day for the next 90 days. I haven't posted much before but I will try now.
Please Hashem give me strength to pass this test which I have failed so many times. Please forgive me for the innumerable amount of times that I have fallen. I regret what I did and I am sorry. It was wrong and I sinned.
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Re: Fed UP 31 Mar 2011 14:12 #102745

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Hatzlacha.  B'Ezras Hashem, you can do it if you treat it as your number one priority, without exception.  Much as a cancer patient, R"L, has to drop everything and concentrate on getting better.

Not that you can't go to work and have a normal routine.  But, you need to view getting better as your "main occupation."
Just as an alcoholic needs to avoid that first sip, a lust addict needs to avoid that first slip.Slip today? No way! ;)Fall today? No way, Jose'!
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Re: Fed UP 31 Mar 2011 15:47 #102752

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joe999 wrote on 31 Mar 2011 07:57:


This is going to be the time that I stop once and for all.  I am not going to do it anymore. period. end of story. it's just not something that I do anymore. This is a new me and the new me just doesn't do that.
B"N I'm going to try to post every day for the next 90 days. I haven't posted much before but I will try now.
Please Hashem give me strength to pass this test which I have failed so many times. Please forgive me for the innumerable amount of times that I have fallen. I regret what I did and I am sorry. It was wrong and I sinned.

Amen!
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