A year is a year! Gevaldig. Kol shechayn keep on trucking!

Impressive you're staying clean despite being out of touch with why you're doing this.

I'm not a big fan of Taphsic because it externalizes the struggle. It becomes about the knaas instead of being about living a real, sober life because that is what true happiness requires. Not saying you should give up your kabalas, just that you should know it's a crutch to get you walking the walk for real.

This isn't easy. Overcoming any addiction is murder. That's why so many people still smoke.

Keep on trucking friend. One day at a time. And stop slipping, OK?

hey chaver
Keep on Trucking

It's great to hear great news, yedid. And remember, practice makes perfect. Accept your slips as normal, but keep on trucking! We can learn from our addiction that "hergel naaseh teva". Eventually, this will be"H become a second nature - to enjoy the aewsome glory of Hashem instead of wallowing in filthy drunkedness.

Hatzlacha

MT

First of all, I am really sorry, because I am so preoccupied with myself, so forgive me, yes I am an addict and I am here for me, sorry. The reason is, I want to remain sober. I would cry for both of us, but that will do no good. So I want to suggest, what you said:

SoldierOfHashem wrote on 14 Jun 2012 03:54:


You write that you pulled yourself away and that is great, but something keeps ringing in my head that dov said, fighting is part of the problem. Anyhow dov says it way better. But honesty is the way out and you are honest. So keep on trucking, write what makes you tick or better what makes you "truck". 8)

Semantics. You are both obviously right. Keep on Trucking with what works, amigos! And so will I.

Have a nice day,

Dov

Get up, don't wallow in the mud, keep on trucking.

I would write back to point one. But that is not what we believe we say Keep On Trucking from where you are and no clean days go to waste!

On Shabbos I felt it was going to happen but managed to push it off until today and then today I had the fall (it was a bit upsetting that the fall was on pictures and not videos like I would have liked )

I would try blocking the picture website but it is very complicated and I think there is always ways to get around. What I have to do is change my way of thought and not so much the computer!


JJ

Nice of you to think of me as some tzaddik שלא טעם טעם חטא who 'blundjed' into GYE. I can honestly declare that after decades of not knowing what my problem is, and not being able to control it, GYE helped me understand that, simply stated, I'm an addict (if I would post all the juicy details of my escapades you may understand, but I do not think that it will help anybody in any way - aderabbah). However, I believe in the GYE handbook philosophy (unlike those who disagree) that there are levels to this disease, and people should find their level of treatment based on their level of disease. I believe that, until I have reason to believe otherwise, I have found be"H a mehalech that keeps me sober and keeps me worthy of being on the chart. But part of that mehalech is to not look at such metrics. Just to 'keep on trucking' as they say here.

Anyhow hatzlacha to all of us according to our individual needs.

MT

OK back to basics (not that I was ever not in basics)

I have started again not tomorrow but a second after the double fall. I have already said "Listen Hashem you know me well enough to know that I love porn etc. and falling is part of the path and growth to get out of the problem (so long as it is a fall and not my place down there). So far I am still kicking which means you still love me, have a purpose in me and want me to get up and back on the right track"

So here I am reporting about a fall but for the first time I didn't get into the stage of no mans land for a few days, until I get up and keep on trucking.

Love you all. Tomorrow I am finished with the home alone case I was in for a few days JJ

I like that idea you ended off with there!

Welcome.
I have had success with taphsic. The best shevua is one that you come up with on your own. I find it's more powerful when it's self generated. But, start it TODAY. It's of no use to you if it's just something you want to do. Bring it into asiya!

Hatzlacha and keep on trucking!

Hi Neshamatehora,

DON'T PAY ANY ATTENTION to those lies and that BullSH*T. You are on the right path and on the road to recovery. Masturbating will only gradually make you less and less fertile - not the opposite.

If it wasn't for total anonymity I wouldn't share this with you, but when I was at rock bottom I had exhausted my sexual energies so much through masturbation that I was totally impotent for 5 months!!! (I was also incontinent for a period as well.) And at the age of 21 when I should have been at my physical peak, I was physically and spiritually wrecked. Just so you don't have any doubts, aside from masturbation I had very healthy habits - I didn't smoke, drink, take drugs or sleep around at all.

When a drugee quits, he will feel withdrawal symptoms, just like the pain you feel when you get a hangover. BUT, carrying on drinking and getting even more drunk so you don't feel the pain of the hangover is not going to make you feel better in the long run.

So just keep on trucking in the knowledge that you are going up and UP, even if the climb does graze your knees from time to time, the view will be WORTH IT!!!

hi 1daat,
good to hear from you
i will keep you in mind at davening for a refua shleimah bekarov
keep on trucking!

Hey yedid.
I don't have an answer to your question.
But, I can tell you that I totally understand where you're coming from. I'm still trying to figure out how to help myself to really start taking my reocvery seriously. Reading the attitudes and all of that is a good idea, and I'll try to incorporate it into MY life, as well.
Keep on trucking!

WOW! Mazel Tov!

Your wonderful tips are so enlightening. Keep on posting and keep on Trucking!!!!

Gevura!