well i fell,
but the cups half full so ill get up!
i think with the 12 step programme i fall only when i have sfeikus in emuna which happened right b4 i fell.
anyway ill keep on trucking.i wont have int. access for two weeks from wednsday bc im going to new york so ill update after yom kippur
Happy high holidays!

Yep, I do it each tefila: praying that yetzer shouldnt catch me at least in this thing.

@Soldier: shkoach. you reminded me that i still owe 10 euro to tzedoko. so now its 12. But next time just say it, you dont have to fall cuz of it. ^.^
be well, soldier.

@TMC: keep on truckingggg

Listen TZ, if the Rebbe said Diet Blueberry, than Diet Blueberry it is. End of conversation!
P.S. I really appreciate the feedback I got from MT, ZS and TZ, anyone else that appreciates my work can chime in, it's tremendously appreciated.




The wrote on 14 Oct 2009 22:00:

Thank YIOOU ZEMMS, FOR THE COKMPLIMENT. THOUGH I must confess I LIKE mt'S NAME (FISHEL) BeTTER THAN "TOGBRP" ALWAYS BETTER FISHEL THAN BURP. IF yoU KNOW WHAT I Mean.
bARDichEV wrote on 04 Oct 2011 18:36:











bARDichEV wrote on 05 Oct 2011 20:13:



SEE MORE OVER THERE ON THAT THRED, SOPME GOOD STUUFS ABOUT MUFFINS

So I have a colleague, a woman in her 50ies and she has a pinched nerve in her leg. She is on pain killers the entire summer, now waiting what the doctors will say, she had massages during the time she was on vacation.

Listen to this, she could afford them since she was in another country, now she can only depend on the western medicine. She can't afford a massage in our country.

What can I do? Oy weh, we are so helpless. I would like to give her money, but I don't have any, I would like to give her a massage, but I don't know how to, I would like to help her, but I am not sure that I can....

Hm. I have a number of a physiotherapist, he might not be that expensive. But. I did suggest the same guy to my mum and that didn't turn out well. The problem was, that my mum had cancer, we didn't know at that time, but the guy didn't make the effort to find out.

On the other hand. If it was me (and not my mum), I would be willing to try anything, for some it does good. Like Moses did, keep on going. Keep on trucking Bards says. Should I give the number?

Darn, we are really helpless. I can't give her the number in good faith, because she said, that she is afraid to visit a kyropractic - and my guy went kyrobeserk on my mum, so I am thinking, perhaps prayer is all I have.

1.oy wey, how easy the yetzer gets us.
2.dont they all look that way. or efshar say better, dont we want to see that they look like the would need us ?

KOT (keep on trucking)- and yea, we love ya 2

Thanks for the compliment MT, And now back to BIZNisS:

BArDS wrote on 17 Aug 2010 15:02:

Bardichev wrote on 24 Aug 2010 17:08:

Hi,

i think you are on the right path. Post your troubles, your thoughts and your struggles. Just getting all the pain and frustration out, is a healing process.
It's a mayor step that you just made: you introduced yourself. And you are now among brothers:

TehillimZugger wrote on 13 Aug 2012 10:20:


So, I am writting these lines also for me: keep posting ;D

So keep on trucking.

All the best to you!!!
Yehoshua

We used to have a great Rebbe [and lately there was a shtikkel hisorerus to awaken his memory] who would say:

FELL SHMELL KEEP ON TRUCKING
JUST TRUKKKKKKKK TRUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK


TOOOOOOOOOOOOT
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HAY wrote on 31 Jul 2009 17:13:




HAY wrote on 05 Feb 2010 14:35:

Thanks Chaim and Gevura,

Well it def did make me feel bad for sure, cos it made me think of a vessel shattering and losing its light. Oh well, as Bards always says, FELL SCHMELL and keep on trucking. Learn, build the vessel stronger and don't beat myself up.

BW,

DL

Blind wrote on 30 May 2012 09:25:

Evedofhashem25,

Perhaps I'm not the best person to be offering advice because I've just fallen twice in the past two weeks over something as trivial as a woman's fashion catalogue. And, I'll soon be starting my 7th year of recovery, so no matter how far into recovery we are, we always need to be on guard.

My recent experience may help you because, like you, 'all of a sudden it took over me too'. It all started with 'wow' and curiosity mixed with lust. I was intrigued so I had to check out their website too. Then more 'wow' and it just became more and more lusting, and then titillation and just pure lusting for pleasure. And it all happened in the space of a few days. At first I could stop, but the more I looked the fiercer my passion became until my desire was so strong I just could not stop looking and just pounced on a popup. The result......falling at night in bed. IDIOT. Apparently, every time a man looks at impure images, a spirit of impurity

The only real chance we have (which I get reminded of by falling hard if I don't keep myself on track) is to avoid the schmutz in the first place. I assume you're probably young and unmarried, so we have no healthy outlet for our sexual energies. Seeing scantily clad or naked women is going to have the effects that God intended, and once we're in the situation it sometimes takes superhuman strength to pull ourselves out. The sensible and indeed the only way is to sidestep the battle and to avoid taking the first drink.

For me that means going back to my original golden rules of no touching my willy and no bikini or lingerie pictures, Victoria's secret etc let alone anything harder. That formula managed to keep me clean for 5 months at a time.

The second hardest thing is not getting depressed and mad at yourself after falling. Got to keep in mind that before a fall we have to do EVERYTHING to prevent it from happening, but after it happens we have to accept that God wanted it to happen. To teach us, humble us, deepen our repentance who knows. We do know that being happy isn't always easy, but being depressed doesn't do us any favours at all. So the sooner we move on and get out of the rut the better we will feel.

I wish Bardichev was here to slap me with one of his FELL SCHMELLs, crank open a bottle of Woodford, slap me on the back and say keep on TRUCKING son, GOD loves us.

Sorry about your fall. But that was a beautiful post and you have the right attitude. Keep on Trucking and don't look back!

Gevura!