Welcome!

KUTGW and Keep on Trucking!!

Welcome!

I too tried to break free for too long and would wait for the wife to fall asleep etc etc 

Youre way ahead of the game in the fact that you have a good therapist, and I'm sure you'll find here what you need ;-)

KEEP ON TRUCKING

Welcome prufimawatchamecallit

I hope you stick around maybe even start your own story thread for no extra charge

And maybe read many threads about disclosing to the wife. It's not advisable even by mistake of we don't have a stretch of sobriety

Why not tweak to tell your Rav or someone else

Whatever you choose
KUTGW and Keep on Trucking!!

Welcome

Wow out of gyes 20 tools you already amassed 50%.

I also have a computer challenge and instead of Taphsic, I setup knas not to go online at certain times. This way my line is drawn way before  thumbnails can attack

Btw at work I'm at times confronted with thumbnails. But I'm not tempted to click on them since I joined gye. If your only prevention is Taphsic and 90 chart, the thumbnails may be white knuckling. 

Please do do me a favor. Keep us posted at least weekly, how Trucking is going for you!!

Keep on Trucking!!

Gevura Shebyesod wrote:

גם אני מסכים להנ״ל, אע״פ שחלקתי בכל תוקף עם גבורה על החוט שלי בשבוע שעבר, במחילת כבוד המונסטער שלו

In other words Keep on Trucking and I love Gevura

I know what you mean about the mindset. For me that's also the most important part of this whole issue.

The way I usually fall is by slowly slipping until I get to a point where I pretty much fell anyway so might as well make it official. I'm more likely to slip when I'm bored. Hence, for me being bored is a time to be very wary and on my guard.

Keep on trucking!

Welcome

It takes a long time for many to admit they're an addict. You are way ahead of the pack already

KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!

Welcome Yankel

Theres another Yankel aka Pidaini

Checkout his story

KEEP ON TRUCKING

Welcome!

If you wanna dive in the deep end, try the white book

Checkout the GPS below for more

KOT
KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!

Joegarder wrote:

I don't want to call GYE a "long term solution" cos it may sound like it needs an investment of long term commitment

So I'll say this; If you're curious and willing, there's plenty of sobriety FOR TODAY to be had on gye!!

Apparently your parents / father are aware of your struggle
Do you have a coach / Rebbi that you are close to?
Oops that was a personal question, just delete it / or blow it up (... there's fireworks today in the states, yknow?  You can send one of those my way)

KEEP ON TRUCKING

IMPORTANT MESSAGE FOR
INDEPENDENCE DAY

KEEP ON TRUCKING

Welcome!

I feel your pain coming through the page :-/

Honesty is honestly a very difficult concept for many of us to master (myself included)

Im worried you beat yourself up too much, which may be why you restrain yourself at the meetings

Dov would probably write "The guys in your meeting will have a heart attack for the first time in their lives hearing that someone in their group is dis-honest" and he'd put this  at the end so you know he's kidding

They all had their dis-honest moment. We all do. An SA group is an accepting place, no one will shoot you for honesty (this may encourage other members to disclose some of theirs too)

It it may be hard to allow yourself to break through

But to the bigger picture, have you shared your story with a professional, do you have a therapist? I think you'd gain tremendously if you did, and oh, also keep on posting and
KEEP ON TRUCKING
youre heading in the right direction 

Markz wrote on 01 Jul 2016 22:09:

A real human connection would do me good, not doubt about it.

In the meantime, I'll just keep on trucking, using the tools that I've learned so far.

Beautiful.

Growth is painful especially when we recognize that we need it; it's also extremely rewarding and sweet.

KUTGW (keep up the good work) and KOT (keep on trucking)!

Welcome brother

You may find the path, but there's a tried and true GYE highway that really rocks!

Keep on Trucking and Oinking