So I'll reply to your questi
on on my thread
Workingguy wrote on 21 Jul 2016 23:01:
Markz wrote on 01 Jul 2016 21:59:
Um... been there... done that... I have covenant eyes... I know all the loopholes... I used to take advantage of them...
Markz,
My problem is that when life gets too difficult I slowly start to slide and eventually will take some advantage of them. You Tube and some images, not going to be specific in why it doesn't trigger Webchaver bc sometimes it does.
Why doesn't that happen to you? Is it that this was never a coping tool but just a struggle because of the bad opportunity of open internet?
Look I'm g
onna be h
onest
I'm not my therapist (Maybe you should give me your therapists ph
one number cos you said he knows how to give a kick in the pants)
But this is h
onestly what I think
As an aspie
1) I have weak communicati
on skills (I didn't give you my number - I'm not the type to shmooze, although I'd love to say hi), and I shy away from people, even from my wife. Usually when we take a walk Im almost never the
one to open a discussi
on / topic... I'll try join her c
onvo, but not always successfully
2) I always
keep myself busy. Is it an escape outlet from society? Possibly. I was bullied as a kid (nothing serious) likely because aspergers are high targets, and that possibly built in me a greater resistance to real people [Porn isn't real life so I was comfortable there :-( ]
3) I never stop to rest. I wouldn't plan to do something to chill ever (If not for my wife needing a vacati
on I wouldn't ever go)
Whether it's too busy at work, learning a bit, posting
on gye, exercise.... I block out the world. When out and about I always put
on my headph
ones and plug into a shiur (There's too many good
ones, enough to get past 120 years...) and block out the world
So I d
on't allow myself opportunity to think if life is too difficult or not. Yes sure sometimes life is tough (I have something I'm going thru now, can't elaborate)
Not that aspies d
on't have feelings. They do and they can be deep, but Aspergers prefer to think and change the world, and will put thought before emoti
on
And aspies like c
onsistent schedules. I find for me, when my schedule is out of whack eg
on Sunday's when I'm off work, so I have time
on my hands and usually that is
one of my challenging lust situati
ons
Recently
on Sunday's I've been checking 'kosher' you tube vids, it's not an escape rather something I like to do
So for me it's not about 12 stepping, rather making a firm Sunday schedule (and sticking to it - I wish. This is a topic I hope to get help from my therapist)
Sorry if my words aren't coherent
Keep on Trucking!!
Mark
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