Hey C2P, your not al
one! I was in a very similar situati
on when I was in my yeshivah days, I also had p**n exposure very early, I also crashed a little after getting serious. And I'm married, in kollel, doing great, and I look forward to every day of my life. It
is possible, it
is doable, you
can fix everything up, and you
can be the good erlicher yid that you really are, you just need to jump in and ride al
ong!
All I can say is "Welcome home!" There was never a place like this where hatzalas nefashos happens every day, and to any
one who's willing to accept himself for who he is. The path is there, and it's well traveled. All you need to take al
ong for the journey, is trust in H-shem, and some of what bards calls 'KOT,NMW' -
KEEP ON TRUCKING NO MATTER WHAT!!! And you will eventually get there.
And hey, you gotta
keep us posted here, no leaving your friends here hanging