Gsp on the weeekends is not so good

Hey a trucker like me can only use US 9

Keep on trucking

B

Do you  Bards? The wild truck driving Rebbe? Do you know one of his pearls of wisdom?

Have you heard of "FELL SHMELL"?

You fell, great so what are you going to do about it?

The best eitza is what the Rebbe says- "KEEP ON TRUCKING"


Basicly FORGET  about your fall and get back to living life. Find something to get involved in and enjoy it. Don't think about your fall. Move on. I fell after almost 140 days and wallowed in the mud for a long time to I moved on. So forget about the fall and live life.

The Rebbe also advices shnaps for anyone not in AA

hi briut
i am no one to speak. i respect you immensely, both for your incredible journey that you chronicled here and for your incredible honesty and withering self-examination. far be it from me to offer you 'guidance' or musar. but you seem to want feedback so here are my two cents.
i think i understand the logic in your argument about the relief a temporary break in your gye work might provide. however, we are tasked to do one thing in this world. one simple thing. to submit to the ratzon hashem. and so if the logic is telling you one thing and the ratzon hashem is saying another, something tells me that we have to recognize the limits of our intellect and say to hashem "you know better and i submit to you". Sefarim say that Adam Harishon had some really convincing arguments about why he should eat from the eitz hadaas. he would be able to serve hashem in the face of greater obstacles than the state he was in before he ate. and that was entirely true. and it was totally wrong. because hashem told him not to do so.
and you can take it up with the Boss. tell him how you feel it is logical and all and how hard it is, how you ache from the stress. judging from what you have written about in the past i'd guess He would send you a response via UPS Next Day Air.
and do not forget us little 'uns here on the forum who look up to you. what a tremendous chizuk and what a massive kiddush hashem it would be to look at how you face this down and just keep on trucking. of course you have to do it for yourself, not for us but this cheshbon might provide a little boost.
hope this might help in some way. whatever happens you are a real warrior and hashem values what you managed to pull off until now on its own merit.
wish you the very best 
hang tight and let Hashem fight
zemiros

ahron wrote on 07 Jul 2010 06:05:



guard did you read that??

his mashgiach gave him the website

gevaldiggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!

aharon

keep on trucking

(chuck the ipod  ,yes i know its mesiras nefesh mamaesh)

b

Welcome back guys, I have not been really active lately for some reason, but as I am approaching 6 months of sobriety, I wanted to share with you some insights that helped/helps me along this road of recovery, I will not post every day, but only when I feel I am strong enough & mind is clear I will do so,

For all of you who keep up with me since I joined this family, u know where I am coming from & for the newbie’s, just check out my earlier posts on the forum,

Before you start to fight this terrible addiction that affects millions of human beings around the globe, Jews & non-Jewish alike, u need to know few things very clear.

You are not at fault for lusting this is how we were created & for a good reason, if there would be no lust, there would be no kids born into this world & hashem needs to get all neshumas down before he can end this gulas, if humans weren’t be lusting, we wouldn’t be created, maluchim iz du genig in himel. If hashem gave us this challenge we can & need to face it & keep it in control, as per mamar chaza”l in avodah zura daf gimel,
So now after you know that you are not a bum for lusting & wanting things your way, than u move on to step 2 , the one thing that you are at fault & will be charged with, is the ignorance to the fact you are a lust addict & not being ready to deal with it, the reason for dealing with it, are just too many to list here, & it varies from person to person, there is kabalistic ones, there are halhcha ones & yet there is also ethical ones, so I am sure u can find yourself between the lines, sure there is also business reasons too, I for example used to spend hours & days & weeks & months wasting my time with finding the lust, did I find it? Hell no, so what did I do, I didn’t give up & tried again, & again, till I decided that if hashem wants me to find lust he will send it my way! I have done the hishtadles for it more than enough, you see how screwed up I got, I used a tool that musar sfurim speak for avodas hashem & used it for my own animalistic desires, but they already say, an avira lishmo is more worth than a mitxvha shlo lishmo, so after spending so much time with that lust search, I’ve ignored my business & lost lots of money, cuz my brain didn’t function properly, why am I sharing you this with you, because b”h I can say that I am past that stage & I won’t go back there iy”h & if this thread can help even 1 Jewish soul it was worth my time.

So lets just sum it up, you admit you have a problem, you realize its not your own fault & don’t beat yourself up for that & get depressed over it, than you are ready to but up a strong fight for life. Yes for good as they call it. Yes it’s hard, even very hard, but it gets easier over time & odom laomol yilod & lfim tzara agra.

It comes a day when we all realize that we are in deep $hit & as sooner in life we deal with it, the better is tha chance to have an easier life bgasmihes & ibrucnies, don’t get me wrong here, I am not referring here to schar v’onesh, hashem is not a bully, he is a bal hurachmen, like I once went to catholic therapist & we spoke about erasing guilt, so he says, that in their culture , the draw line for sinful thoughts is, that if you are halfway erect, u sinned, so he asked his client , do you really imagine hahsem walking around with a ruler in his pocket  I am just referring to the fact that as u free from lust, u free from many other bad habits & you just get to see life with clear eyes, it goes hand by hand, similar to what I saw recently brought down by da parsha from “מעקה" ‘’ that when a person falls of your roof he is not “punished” with death, or in best case injury, it’s just the natural “outcome”

Believe me guys, same applies here, if you fell & try to pick yourself up, u r a hero, if u fall again, no worries, just keep on trucking as Bards always says, but if u fell & u leave yourself on the ground u r GUILTY! Just like the mishan says in buba kama 3rd priak, if someone slipped & broke something , or spilled, I can go on with endless exemplas from chazal , but you guys will still think I really am a talmid chochem & than you will be looking at me, hey this jerk is really a white collar guy & still lusts ooch!  lets get to work or we will be alta kakers with lustful thoughts, yes they never go away, I’ve seen 55+ guys in chat rooms, trying to fish a chick, & I am talking here on anushim mchibudim

I will have to continue some other time hopefully wihin a week or so, as I am already wasting more time than I should

Comments & questions & even critic are all encouraged here or in private, however u feel it

Have a meaningful day

DC & 1daat my dear friends thanks for your words.

1daat, I have read with much interest the Bard's thread - he's a little loopy but I like his style - Keep on trucking!!!

As for me today is a very significant day. It is no major GYE milestone, but it is day 28 and as the numerically gifted amongst us will know that makes it a Koiach day. I sincerely pray that H" gives me Koiach to get through it. Yesterday was my toughest so far. I felt so low because of things that are going on in my life - nothing to do with shmiras einayim, but for me, it is feelings of depression that have always brought out the worst in me and made me more likely to fall. I came so close, but somehow H" gave me the strength to get through it. It's like the Rabbonim say, H" only gives us test we can handle. He gives them to us to give us an opportunity to show Him how much we love him and He gives us the tools to be able to do it, the rest is down to our Bechiro. Yesterday I was strong. Today PG, I will be stronger still. It is Koiach day after all.

I have to get down to doing some work, but will hopefully be back later to post some more.

For now a Brocho to you all to have a Koidesh'dike day.

Together we can all get through this day, just today Rabboisai.

Kol tuv,

Haleivi

Keep on trucking SB, keep on trucking.

Keep on trucking

Is the attitude

Of balance

And optimism

If you fall

You say fell shmell pick urself up and keep on truckin

If you have a clean day or week or even a full 90.

Don't get heady or overconfident

Just truck along as if it were day number one

Now!!

Keep on truckin!!!

Bards

an old trucker once said:

keep on trucking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eliyau

we all need chizzuk

and welcome aboard

8 days is huge

thats over a week of pushing back a big strong monster

u are you own chizzuk
the weakness you feel is the  YH going nuts

he is going crazy

achhhh I lost another client


now here is some advice

#1 DO'NT TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHY U HAVE AN ADDICTION

what differrnce does it make?

do you try to figure out why you prefer diet coke over diet pepsi

or do you try to figure out why you like hot pizza over cold pizza

or why you prefer driving over being driven


who cares it is what it is

man,who cares

just keep on trucking!!!

#2

don't get upset if u slip or fall

did you ever learn how to ride a bike? or daven for tha amud? dance the hora??

keep on trucking!!!!

b

SB my friend.  Just keep on trucking no matter what.  Life has ups and downs and it's not how you prepare for them that counts, it's how you react to them.  Enjoy your wife and understand that she needs to be your true best friend and your true rock of your life.  I have made my wife that and I think even though we have ups and downs we still are there for each other and every bump makes us stronger.  I have found my eyes only need to look at my wife for she is the only one that I know that wants me no matter what and will gladly be there for me for anything.

KEEP ON TRUCKING
WAY TO GO MAN!!!

Chazak Ameinu, you're an amazing warrior. Don't let the fall get you down. The fact you are working on this already sets you apart from 99% of the world. The Yetzer Hara's biggest goal is to get you down. Don't let him.

Please read the last few principles of the Attitude Handbook.

Keep on trucking. You inspire us all!

installed wrote on 14 Jun 2010 14:52:






installed welcome aboard

feelin like a HYPOCRATE is classic YH (yetzer hora) modus operandi

read bardichevs battle

i discuss it there in many places

its also a fun read

KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!!!!!!!!

BARDS

CA

Get off the floor

Say loud

FELL SHMELL

And keep on trucking


Right where u were



I said get off the floor

NOW!!!

No last looks. No last click. No anyhow down here. N no no


Good boy

Grab the wheel and KOT

B