Posting here and getting these responses was a real boost to me. I went to a shiur and Shacharis this morning, and I feel pretty optimistic. I have a lot of stuff to work out and a long journey ahead. I'm currently deep into addiction to various physical things including eating way too much and junky food compulsively, smoking half a pack a day, and of course, SA. But I'm sort of excited in way to put these things right, to travel that journey of self-improvement and really appreciate what I accomplish rather than never having the problems. For the next few months, I'm going to be totally focused on graduating from college and avoiding internet porn, and after that, I'm going to tackle smoking, and then after that, try to eat more healthy and lose weight. I just need to not get thrown off too much by the ups and downs, which I haven't responded to well in the past. It all comes down to Keep On Trucking I guess. Those words are so wise.
