Teddy, thanks for ur time & effort, but listen to me i did change quite a bit over the last year & i did change my prospective too, i am just tired of hearing this same old again & again, u gota try a little harder, hang in there, things will improve, ive been hearing this now for years , so yes i thank hashem for all the good he did to me, but still i was picked for a task i can’t stand by & i just want him to take away all the pain, there is enough people on the world were to distribute the pain, i got my fair share i think, so why its me for so long, I am just too down to keep on trucking