135 is awesome!
and thanks for the thanks
being scared for your future is a good thing, in my opini
on. we all need to be scared for our future. otherwise we will quickly become roadkill.
the key is to move from being scared into doing something about it. maybe put
on webchaver at work, or yishmoreini or something similar.
Rebbe Nachman famously said that this world is like a narrow bridge and it most definitely is scary, we might fall off at any time. but the most important thing is not to be 'scared' at all, meaning that although we need an awareness of the possibility of falling off we cannot allow that worry and fear to overwhelm our mind. we need to
keep on trucking and dealing with the fear. not to sit trembling in the corner. (i am talking to myself more than to you).
keep up your great work, you are moving and shaking things up there in Shomayim and down here
on earth with your avodah
gevaldig