Hi every
one.
I d
on't check this site anymore because I d
on't want to focus
on my addicti
on, but I saw Kedusha's PM in my email. Nice to hear from you all. I hope you are doing well. Also nice to know you haven't forgotten about me.
Thank G-d, I'm doing pretty good. I've been seeing a new therapist for about 4 m
onths, and I find he's helping. Also, around 2 m
onths ago I started taking medicati
on, and that's helped me a lot. I now feel that I have bechira chofshit. I sometimes slip, but most of the time, make the right decisi
ons. Before the medicati
ons, I really felt compelled, as if I had very little choice in the matter.
Not that we're counting

but I'm almost 11 weeks porn free and mz"l free. My previous record was 6 weeks (remember I raised a couple of buck for GYE then?). It's easier, but not easy. I am aware now when I'm about to cross (or have crossed) a line before getting to the red line.
Once we cross the red line, it's almost impossible to pull back.
With the help of therapy, I've also improved (deepened) my relati
onship with my wife and kids. In fact, you could say that I've replaced my "virtual" fantasy relati
onships with internet women with my relati
onship with my real wife and kids. Much better for all of us! I've also been working
on my relati
onship with my boss, and my attitude toward work in general.
It feels good working
on living each day (and feeling good about myself), and not
surviving through another day.
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A big thank you to HaShem, my family, and my therapist for helping me so far.
7UP, are you still here? Do you still read the men's side? Hope you're well. (Can you say "hi" to me?)
Habib, how's married life? Hope you're well.
And to all of my guy friends who've supported me, thank you (and of course I hope you're all well too).
And to Guard--no words can express my gratitude to you. Thank you.
Guys, keep on trucking!