Wow. Thank you. It's a powerful term indicating the load on your back but u still haul. Keep on trucking.

a golden oldie

bardichev wrote on 14 Oct 2009 22:00:

We are all proud of you!

Keep on trucking, and keep your eyes on the road  !!

Gevura!

rabeinu, that was a gevaldigggggggger shiur
כמים קרים על נפש עיפה

i hope you don't mind if i post a recording for those that might have missed it

bardichev wrote on 20 Sep 2011 19:15:

heuni memass wrote on 20 Sep 2011 18:18:


heuni

thanks for the suggestion

herr ois

ubber herr gut

i will give you a shiur in keep on truckinh

now i will sound like my old maggid shiur


vusss??!!

heunni!??

vuss!!

foon dayn kasha zeh ich azz du bichlal farshtayst nit dem sugya!!!!


bin ich gerecht??!!





ok thats a little too tuff for bards

bu heuni i want to be masbir to you with a case in point

a talmid asks his rebbe

rebbi, what should i do if i have cheshek (desire) to learn

as ann aside the word cheshek is defined desire

cheshek desire get the drift

back tomy story

rebbi what should i do if i have no cheshek to learn??

the rebbei says" LEARN WITHOUT CHESHEK"!!!!


HEUNI!

THE POINT OF KEEP ON TRUCKING IS

TRUCK ALONG EVEN IF THE ROAD FEELS LIKE SANDPAPER

ITS ALL BUMBPY

POHOLES

ONE FLAT TIRE

2 BLOWOUTS

PULLED OVER BY THE COPS

THE SHERRIF

THE SHVIGGER

YOU HAVE NO GAS

TOO MUCH GAS

TOO MUCH CHOLINT

TRIGGERS

NO TRIGGERS

FALLS SLIPS

BREAKFAST

SNOWSTORMS
YAK-ATTACK

JUSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

KEEP ON TRUCKING

bardichev wrote on 16 Sep 2011 02:53:


maybe its time to add to your quote- keep on trucking b'simcha.. Or KOTB

Wow you're realy in a tough spot there. I envy your mesirash nefesh in sticking together to help her.

Maybe you can find some relaxing but productive activity to help ease the stress, like a hobby or something. If you are actually doing something useful it's not really "escaping" it's just a change of pace.

Hang in there and Keep on Trucking!!!

Gevura!

Hi Yedid,

It is with great interest and some admiration that I read your blog detailing the ongoing struggle you are having. I wanted to write you because in many ways your struggle parrallels mine. For many many years I had gone thru the same things as you, trying much of the same solutions (although I have to admit that your ruchniyos is on a higher level than mine ever was). You are fighting the good fight and you are getting great advice along the way!

What is specifically admirable about you is that it seems (without being incapacitated by guilt) that you get back up, you come up with solutions or different approaches to make it less likely to reach the stage at which you are in danger and try again. You write about it and, get great advice, and all in all are able to maintain a positive and constructive attitude. This is a huge accomplishment in and of itself.

Because of what I have been through (and am still going through) I would like to make a small suggestion but I want to emphasize that regardless of anything I say...all of this is just a suggestion and you should do whatever works for you.

A little background first:

I'm a family physician who actually spent much of my early practice doing clinical hypnosis. Although I didn't realize it at that time, I now see that some of the principles of hypnosis could have helped me in the struggles that I had in this area throughout much of my life. One of those principles is that when crafting a hypnotic script to help someone one should should never suggest "a negative" because your subconscious mind will always see it as "a positive". The classic example is if I tell you:

Whatever you do don't think of pink elephants.

You will engage in the struggle to not think of pink elephants and you will end up then thinking of pink elephants!

When we try to fight our lust, I think it works the same way. The more you get down in the dirt and struggle with it the more it struggles with you and the more you think about it. Gradually this wears you down (with me, I would often not sleep the whole night engaged in this useless struggle) and then you give in.

One trick that I am finding is beginning to work with me is to use that mental energy that one would normally use to fight the lust in a different way.

Focus on who you are. You are a child of G-d, infinitely precious to him. This is regardless of what you do or what you don't do. As a Jew, you are a prince, a priest, a member of the holiest nation on earth. When it comes to your interaction with the lower parts of existence, you belong on a throne and you have every right and a God-given r'shus to look upon the "shmutz" with disdain and contempt. These activities are actually below you. When tempted, It might help to actually visualize the throne, imagine yourself in priestly garments looking at the computer, visualize yourself looking down; ask yourself what is befitting for someone of your stature.

Of course, I realize that it's important to be humble; but I don't think that that is inconsistent with an acknowledgment of who you are and what you were created for.

Try to put yourself above it. It's not for you. You are made for higher and better things. Remember that you are basically where your mind is at.

That's all I wanted to say. If it works for you great; if not, just keep on trucking. Regardless, I really admire you.

Hold on and keep on trucking.

marriage is tofu shnayim min ha-echad

tav limaysav tandu (chassidish is tan-dee)

keep on trucking boys!

Yossi.L. wrote on 15 Sep 2011 13:00:


The same things that got me into this in the first place.....it's still there. Now that I understand it and am more conscious of it it's easier to fight, and I am taking steps to change my life in ways that will hopefully make me not feel it so much. But whenever I am feeling down or get triggered it all comes boiling back up and makes me want........I don't know if it will ever really go away completely.

Just gotta keep on Trucking!

Gevura!

Your Y"H is starving and choking, so he's taken to fighting dirty.  You keep on trucking.  He'll never stop completely, but you are weakening him.

holistic wrote on 13 Sep 2011 23:01:


Dear holistic (whatever your real name is),

Wow. You write deeply and clearly.

Not being a Breslover, all I know of Rebbe Nachman is from some of the books. In one, he was quoted as saying something like "Hashem is also in Gehinom". It actually seems to be a mikroh molei in Tehillim 139: "va'atziyah she'ol, hinekah!"

What does this mean? To me, it means that He makes everything right. RMCh"L calls this "Sh'litas haYichud". In the end, Atzaso ta'amod - He always wins. So, He will fix me up so I will in fact be close to Him in Olam Habah. He could have created the entire world just for me. So he saves His world - my world - so His plan 'wins'.

The question, as you put it so well, is how I want the ride to be. Do I want to be a shutaf in ma'aseh beraishis (That is what this success story is)? Or do I want to be a more passive partner with Him in this (winning) plan? If I porn my brains out and go for the sex stuff instead of grow up and use Him, get closer to Him, and be a decent chap, then I will need lots and lots of tikkun. Maybe I will still need lots of tikkun. Be we pray for an easier trip, of course.

But He can never be the enemy, no matter what. When I feel He is the enemy (and sometimes I forget and do, as you describe, slip back into my old ways - the same ways that fueled my lusting and acting out!), then I need to get my head examined. I call a program buddy and have a talk. For one reason or another, I need these talks every week, sometimes every day. But the point is that they work, and my head is again screwed on straight, be"H.

We are never really off the "derech".

May we all recover each in his own way, and have an easy path in life today. In other words, keep on trucking. 

Soulinpain,

nice to meet you

I came to the site in a state of despair as well, I think most of us here feel that way when we find it. You seem like you are afew steps ahead of me in recovery because you see it is ruining your life, your job, socially etc. I needed to work on realizing that. When we are in a rock bottom state is a perfect time to admit powerlessness and start working the program in a true and honest way.

Now join us my brother there is help on this site and there is real hope if you stay around.

Post away, share some more of your story and struggles.

we are all in this together.

there are 3 words that I need to introduce you to - Keep on trucking. (KOT)

we dont look back we drive forward- Now make the rest on today a clean day.

--hm

emunah keep on trucking!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just move along

dont worry

be happy

truck along