http://www.aish.com/v/ho/101461854.html

I was waiting for him to say "Fell Shmell, Keep On Trucking"  ;D ;D

Just came across this, it's perfect for us.

http://www.aish.com/v/ho/101461854.html

I was waiting for him to say "Fell Shmell, Keep On Trucking"  ;D

Thanks Gesher Tzar maod, You are right. Although Today I definitely dont feel Kodosh. It was a rough day for my spiritual self. Boruch Hashem I didnt have a real fall, but I lost control of my mind for quite a few hours as I jumped from fantasy to fantasy and I couldnt get a grip, I didnt stop my self from taking 2nd glances at people. Just a bad bad day for me... But I will keep on trucking and Gd willing Tomorrow will be better. I find once I let go a little bit I cant seem to stop my self afterwards no matter how hard I try, I guess I'll have to work harder to keep my guard up.. One day at a time, with Hashems help.

Thanks all for listening

well if she would have asked for possum pie and loquat danishes..

hey she is not my problem

keep on trucking

stay in the gane

simcha is the secret

lets not talk about ladies

fooooor in fayyyyyf

after consultation with the rebbe himself and some thought here is my thesis about the sudden popularity of AYT muffins and the reason bakeshops across the country are reporting a shortage.

during these days of elul and Aseres Yemei Teshuva people sometimes get stressed out.
for ostensibly good reasons.
it's Elul!! it's R"H! it's Y"K!!
i must/need/want to DO SOMETHING.
i must/need/want to FEEL the yomim noraim.
how can i wear crocs/read Hamodia/drink cappuccino?
can i talk a walk, a nap, mow the lawn?

yes, a person should DO SOMETHING for the Yomim Noraim. learn some mussar be'hispaalus, ask mechila for a boo boo you made, examine your life, take steps in the right direction.

But....
do not think you can become Mr.PureHolyMasmid after learning Mesilas Yesharim for 15 minutes and making a resolution that starting now i am gonna be good. uh uh. not gonna happen. and the RBSO is not asking that of you. He wants you to work at it. But at a manageable pace.

so get up earlier for selichos, daven, learn, examine your life, make amends. don't let the Yomim Noraim pass by and be forgotten with the kittel until Pesach. But don't lose your balance. Don't bite off more than you can chew. as Gibbor120 recently said: "aim for the small, accomplish the big". or as Rebbe B says: Keep on Trucking.

You can still smile, laugh, wear crocs at home, drink a cappuccino,
AND eat a (pas yisrael) muffin.

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FSKOT! (Fell Shmell--Keep on Trucking)

 
Re: Noora BAmaram's Journey and Journal
« Reply #401 on: October 04, 2011, 06:00:10 AM »Quote Modify Remove Split Topic Noooorah!

Absolutely.  The most important thing is to keep a positive frame of mind and not to dwell on falls at all (Here we call it KOT - keep on trucking).

Completely unrelated regarding the story you brought down I remember seeing that a mikre layla on Yom Kippur (where it was not brought on by improper thoughts) is actually a good siman.

All the best to you. By the way I know youve been putting off getting a filter. K9 is a completely free filter that you can download the whole thing shouldnt take you more then 10 minutes. google it.

Noooorah!

Keep on trucking

I want u to scream "fell shmell" 90 times

If the gemara tells us

Lo chatta david ella lihoros teshuvah liyachid

You are that yachid!!

U do teshuvah!!

We will all be singing lo chatta noora lo chatta noora ( I can see the hurra dance to this tune)


Her ois the ketoires had chelbina

The lulav has the arava

We all need a shminis shebishminis of gaava


Atta nosain yad liposhim we will say by neilla

Hashem is giving you a hand

Gevaldiggggggggggg

Nooorah its gooornisht mit gooornisht

Truck vaytter!!!

Ko amar achicha levy yitzchak!!!!!


Chizki vimtzi!!!

Lummir tantzen


Umar reb akiva!
Lifnai mi attem mitiharrim!!mi mitaher esschem

Avichem shebashamayim


Brarararararrarararm

bardichev wrote on 03 Oct 2011 19:36:

rebbe i'm trying to scream the loudest i can.

scream keep on trucking!!!!!!!

mazal tov!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you guys for your warm responses, what plain simple words can do!! its indescribable

Since my most recent -depressing-  post I have really achieved so much. I sincerely believe that the fall was a ירידה לצורך עלייה and big time עלייה

let me explain:
on sep 16 I had a fall after being clean for 35 days. I was depressed and didn't have the courage to fight and to truck on. more then the fall itself I was bothered by the way of how the 35 clean days was by itslef. Yes during that 35 days I didnt actually fell and I didn't spill seeds however!! I DID think and fantasied very deeply and even sometimes rubbing myself to some extend. I felt that I'm just covering the problem and not fixing it. and just the power in me to break free was greater than the need to give in. I was living with the problem I was sleeping with the addictin. the only reason I didnt spill seed and managed to stay clean was because I had an extreme amount of horsepower on my truck making it possible to shlep more that the limit is.  but everything came to a halt. On sep 16 I hit something and the entire truck turned over, precisely because I had abused my truck and carried more than it was meant to shlep. only after getting out of my truck to see the damage only then I chapped what load I've carried along the entire way making it much harder than it outta be. so much filth and waste... I felt like im giving up... 

But hashem had a different plan. Suddenly I thought lets give it a shot. I decided than I'm not going to think about anything related to my addiction just for one week. not about my fall, no fantasies not about my new cycle, and not about my future plans. just one week Im going to try to stay clean with the least possible thinking. as weird as it might sound the entire week was so pure clean both on a physical level -but more importunately to me- on a emotional level I didn't even think once about po...graphy, I hadnt have any fantasies. aha what a breath of fresh air that was. from here its very simple I just kept my truck in that lane. whenever a bad thought comes I try hard to push it off. Yes you can control the mind to some extend. so instead of living with the problem im rather destroying the problem.
Currently I'm 16 days clean and counting. its only 16 days however, I feel like I have accomplished more in those 16 days than the entire previous 35 clean days. Im 16 days without any lasting fantasy without the slightest masturbating without looking at permitted pictures and thinking.... just clean as a fish... wow as I write this I really feel great about me.

Just a few notes, I still need to pay 250 for my most recent fall (as im on the taphsic method)
I decided Im only going to use my home computer for the internet once a week(with one exception when its really business related and my wife is around or she asks me to do it). the home is where I have some privacy when my wife is not around. as a result I might be less on GYE

Im standing a week before yom kippur.. hashem help me surpass my own record (55 days) both in number and in pureness

Just one comment for all of you. IF I COULD DO IT THAN ALL OF YOU COULD SURELY DO IT. let roll

keep on trucking

zacharti lach chessed ne-urayich!!!!!

2 years of keep on trucking

pretty cool!!

Day 73....

Lekovod the Yomim Noroim a thought about Ledovid Hashem Oiri.....

בִּקְרֹב עָלַי, מְרֵעִים לֶאֱכֹל אֶת-בְּשָׂרִי; צָרַי וְאֹיְבַי לִי; הֵמָּה כָשְׁלוּ וְנָפָלוּ.

The word B'kroiv is explained by the meforshim as either "coming close" from the word Koroiv, or as "battle" from the word Krov. The truth is that they are really the same, the word Krov means "close combat". M're'im means "evildoers" but is very closely related to the word Re'im meaning friends, and is sometimes used that way.

So the beginning of the possuk is referring to the evildoers who masquerade as friends. The Yetzer Hora, and those who facilitate him, are our fake friends, manipulating us into thinking that they are here to help us and that what they have to offer is good. But, צָרַי וְאֹיְבַי לִי, when they are MY enemies, when I recognize them for the evil that they really are, הֵמָּה כָשְׁלוּ וְנָפָלוּ, they stumble and fall. Once we see their true nature, they lose their power over us and we can vanquish them, with Hashem's help!

A Ksiva Vachasim Tova to all, and may we be zoche to Keep On Trucking to new heights in Avodas Hashem.

Gevura!

ZemirosShabbos wrote on 21 Sep 2011 15:04:


:'( :'( :'(

Way to go! Keep on Trucking!!

Ksiva VChasima Tova.

Gevura!