Keep on Trucking ("KUT") literally means Carry on driving your lorry, which means carry on guarding your eyes and your thoughts now like you did for those glorious 18 days. The second time it is easier because you know you can do it. If you commit to posting at least once a day on the forum it will be a good incentive. If you look away on the drive to work in the morning you will feel great posting about it in the evening.

hatzlacha rabbah! we're all in this together.
hope to get to know you

there are two klallim on this forum
klal aleph: KOT (keep on trucking)
klal beis: KOP (keep on posting)


nun beis: GUITAR (get up, into truck and rowuhl!!!) 

Gut Moed and welcome aboard!

Around here we say "Fell Shmell!!" that means that a fall does not negate all the hard work and accomplishment that came before. You did 18 days clean, that's an amazing achievement! Those 18 days are waiting for you in Olam Haba and nothing can take them away.

You already have the right attitude, Atzvus is one of the YH's strongest weapons. So let go of the falls, they are in the past, the future is what counts. Just concentrate on being clean today, and every day is a new today.

Keep On Trucking!!! (do you know what that means yet?)

Gevura!

bardichev wrote on 10 Oct 2011 15:01:



Please don't drink Woodford or any other alcohol before you go up to the roof!
Very few people make it to 90 days in one attempt(I didn't. I made it once and I am still waiting to get there again.) Very few millionaires made a million dollars in their first job. Rav Noach Weinberg zt"l opened a dozen yeshivos which all failed before he opened Aish Hatorah. Even the Rebono Shel Olam destroyed the world in the Mabul when things didn't work out.


Carry on driving your lorry!

A Gut Moed everyone!

With the help of Hashem Yisborach and all of my friends who supported and encouraged me along the way, I have made it through 90 days!

Thank You Hashem for giving me a second chance. And thanks to all of you who made it so much easier to keep on trucking when it was rough and I was feeling down.

BTW how many people get to make a Shehecheyonu and say Hallel on their 90th day? Even for this I must thank Hashem, for giving me the opportunity to thank Him properly. Modim Anachnu Loch......Al Sheanachnu Modim Loch.

I know that it's not over, there's no magic off switch. I will be keeping on trucking with all of you for the rest of my life, but I know that I am finally doing what I was sent here for.

But for now let's all say LeChaim!!!!

Gevura!

Hey Geschmack,

all my love to you and positive wishes to you. Fell schmell as Bards puts it. Today you are sober, hey you can do one day. And keep writting heiliger Yid, be honest on what triggered you, thus bring healing to yorself, to me and the rest of GYE... Keep on trucking!!! 8)

HSG,
Sounds like you're really struggling and want to beat this.
A wise man once said, "if you want to change some things in your life, then you have to change some things in your life."  For you, I think this means staying completely away from the computer.  And newspapers.  And magazines.  And billboards.  And babes on the street.  Step one is admitting powerlessness over this taivah.  When you're powerless over an opponent, you don't face him in the ring.  You avoid the ring, and the whole freaking arena for that matter.  Then you can live.

You want to keep your access to GYE, set your filter to block EVERYTHING except GYE, and give someone else the password.  Maybe some other frum sites.  There's nothing on the mainstream web that's good enough to sacrifice your very sanity for.  If you think there is, that's the counsel of the Y"H.

For the hirhurim, start working the steps.  Try this tefilah when they come.  The second they come.  Every time.  Even if they come right back.

"Ribbono Shel Olam, I am powerless over lust and my life has become unmanageable.
Only You can restore me to sanity.
I turn my life and my lust over to Your care and ask you to please heal me from this illness of lust.  I don't want to lust, I only want You and a relationship  with You and Your Torah.  Take my lust.  Please, take my lust.

Do keep on trucking.
Alex

Thanks guys, you really cheered me up. Ive had some strong urges since then, but BH doing well. still gotta keep on trucking.

Sorry for the delay in posting. I have had so much to do that this took a back seat to everything else.

Baruch Hashem, I am now one day clean. I will, as gevurashebyesod says, keep on trucking. Today was an amazing day.

I need more help and if anybody can send me chizuk when possible it would be extremely appreciated. I thank anybody and everybody for helping out.

I saw the rabbi that I mentioned in the first post today. It's been a while since I've seen him. I could not look at him straight. It was too hard. Be'ezrat hashem, the next time I see him, I will be at least a month clean. That is the goal for today.

Anybody who can, please push me. I need some help and I have a new friend who will help out, but I don't know if it will be enough. Even if you could pray for me, anything would be highly appreciated.

I hope we all here have the power to overcome the yesser hara. I hope everybody here is sealed for a prosperous and successful year, Amen.

May we merit to see the coming of Mashiach, amen.

Jew Boy

Dear Hurt,

I feel where you are, i've been there too. Our temptations are EVERYWHERE, there is no escape. Those first few weeks I was literally crying from the pain of trying not to look, not to want, not to think. I wandered around in a daze, jsut trying to look down at the floor and singing sad nigunnim to myself. I took chances crossing the street in traffic, thinking "Hashem here's your chance to end it and take away the pain". Like you, it was only the thought of my family that helped me pull through, I could not bear to think of what they would suffer if something bad really happened to me. And of course reading all the stories here on GYE (I wasn't posting yet then) reminded me that I can get through this, I'm not the first one to try.

So to steal a phrase from "their" propaganda, "It gets better!" Once you get through the initial withdrawal it will not be so bad. For me it has sort of settled down into mainly a shemiras einayim problem. As long as I dont see stuff i'm OK. But when I get triggered (and again, they are everywhere!) it starts coming back and I have to push it back down. I don't know if it will ever go away completely, it will probably be a lifelong battle.

meanwhile, focus on doing things to improve yourself rather than just wallowing in the pain. Work on your relationship with your family, get close to your kids. Read the handbooks and find ways to incorporate the concepts and steps into your life and your thoughts (I am not doing the formal 12 steps, but I found that many of the ideas there helped me a lot.) Share your struggles here with us, it really helps to let it out.
And daven hard and throw your problems on Hashem, say "I really want to let go of this and I can't, So I am giving it over to you". Pischu Li Pesach Kchudo shel Machat, He is just waiting for you to give him an opening, to really commit to change.

And most important of all, do not let yourself be fooled into thinking that this issue defines who and what you are. That is a sure path to depression and giving up. Just remember, you have a special holy neshoma, and you were entrusted by Hashem with this special challenge, because He knows that you CAN do it, with His help. You just have to ask!

Keep On Trucking!!! (and keep in touch)

Gevura!

Gevura!

go to the rooof of your house

dont jump

scream fell shmell


ahhhh thast will feel better

take a swig of woodford

keep on trucking!!!!!!!!!!!

TehillimZugger wrote on 10 Oct 2011 03:35:



thanks

keep on trucking!!!!!!!!

WHY

DON'T PEOPLE UNDERSTAND

THE HOLY WISDOM

OF THE HOLY BARDITSHIVER.

HE EXPLAINS IT

IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WAY.

IT'S HARD

IT'S SHMARD

IT'S THE  O N L Y  WAY!!


WRITTEN BY THE TRUCK DESIGNER

THE ONLY WAY TO

KEEP ON TRUCKING

90 days before Yom Kippur! I bet this was a great Yom Kippur for you.
Keep on trucking.

Gevura ShebYesod wrote on 06 Oct 2011 19:39:

What it takes Aish to teach in a 4 1/2 minute multimedia presentation, the holy rebbe can accomplish with 5 simple words FSKOT!  ;D ;D ;D