it was a great thing for me last night. some stressful stuff on the home front. the post-it note was a davar be'ito
boruch hatatty

add this to the GYE list

keep on trucking (נ"א monstuh trucking)
say lishuascha kivisi
eat cholint (in Mottel's kitchen)
quote Dov
and be a MAN

Obormottel,

great job! The $90 have been donated in your honor! Thank you for giving me this mitzva. Keep on trucking!!!

Hi SSBT,

so sorry that you fell. But remember all the valiant fighting you did before you went down. And all the days that you made it through clean. You have not lost them, and you can do it again. You know it, you've done it already. So say it loud and proud....

FELL SHMELL, I"M GONNA KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!!!!!!

Hang in there!

Gevura!

I'm really sorry to hear that you are feeling so depressed. I can really relate to that. I actually just fell today also twice After my first 18 day streak in a long time. I went to the Mikveh soon after and I was feeling a lot better but what really made me feel the best is that I learned a really good second seder and night seder. I still feel the repercussions of falling but at least it took away my depression. Some one wrote to me (I don't know how to do a quote) to try and use this as a speing board that now you have a goal. To beat ur streak by even just one day. You are a great person and that's how you should feel when you meet with your friends and the fact that you fell doesn't make you bad. It just shows you actually that you are trying so hard and you are actually always working towards this holy goal. That's how you should think of yourself when you are with your friends. That you have a 24 hour job that you do. Its truly amazing. Stay strong and keep on trucking. Hashem can do anything as long as you let him. He hears your cries. He knows he knows that you are trying brutally hard. Hatzlocho and I hope this helps a bit.
          Newlife

Wow, that took guts. For me that's how I started this whole journey. I just couldn't stand myself anymore and I told her, I didn't even care what the results would be. The worst possible consequence was at that time better than the hell going on inside me. B"H she took it well and she became the catalyst for my recovery. It was the best thing I ever did in my whole life, and our relationship has become stronger than ever.

Hang in there, the intensity of it will settle down, and you will be so much the better for it.

Keep On Trucking!!!!

Gevura!

Nicolo99 wrote on 03 Nov 2011 11:45:

Welcome aboard, Nicolo. Can I ask whats up with the username?

I know, tell me about it. Especially when it hits during the worst moment... Like Rosh Hashana, in shul or Neila or something. But this is what hashem want for me, and I am geting dangerously close to hosting a new pity party, so I just need to remember the following, as my Rebbi told me, "These are the cards that Hashem wants for you". If Hashem says that this is what I must deal with, even during Neila, then I guess I only have one way to go then, to keep on trucking forward!

Yehoshua,

I don't know if my post is the one you saw, but it could have been....

I have come to realize that the SSA feelings and the lusting problem can be separated out and need to be worked on separately. There are the emotional/psychological influences from the past that drove me to SSA feelings, and there are things that I am working on to alleviate and rectify that, and hopefully diminish the yearning for those relationships that are wrong and cannot be.

But at the same time I had a problem with M*** and P***, which is just lust like anyone else's regardless of what pictures we like to look at. And the same tools and methods apply to all of us. I am not doing a formal 12 step program, but I found that many of the principles are closely aligned with what is working for me. Davening hard, asking Hashem to help me and to take away the urge to lust, as well as watching my eyes and thoughts to the best of my ability.

So hang in there, try to get close to Hashem in whatever way you can. He loves you as He loves all of us, and is waiting for us to call out to Him so He can help and heal us.

And remember, the pain of stopping is good healing pain, so much better than the pain of acting out, which is torture to our soul. The freedom is waiting on the other side, you will get there.

Keep On Trucking!!!!

Gevura!

You opened here, you opened to Hashem, you opened to yourself. I fell too, just yesterday. So all my love and respect to you ToAdd!!! Keep on trucking!!!

Hey Avraham613,
    Sometimes it helps to know that someone else is in the same situation. But if this gives you Chizuk for me its only 2 weeks and its starting to get shaky.  Think about how far you've gone. How much you've accomplished. How many people would love to be able to say 4 months clean.
    You know, tonight I was walking and saw a pretty woman and tried to not look but I couldn't control myself until I said to myself "I have no power" my power comes from Hashem and that's when I was able to turn away. Keep on trucking and just know that every member of GYE is supporting and rooting for you. But most importantly, the Eibishter and yourself. You are your biggest fan just pat yourself on the back every moment you don't give in. Hatzlochoh and Keep up the Great work.

        Newlife

HY - Nice to meet you. I know my name may make you think so however I am not a chazan on yomim nora'im. over the past 2 years there has been conversations about chazanim for the yomim noraim that may interest you.

here is a link www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=2872.0


[/quote]Hashem Yaasfeni wrote on 02 Nov 2011 18:55:


I can second that. It's an amaizing place and lots of good people here. There is so much to learn on this site lots of great advice here. Make a plan of action that you would like to follow and stick to it. whether its the phone conferences, posting, 12 step groups, trucking or all the above.

A huge key is to know Hashem loves us so much no matter how low we have gone.

Keep on trucking my friend...

hm

ZemirosShabbos wrote on 02 Nov 2011 17:22:

Keep On Trucking
On Trucking Keep
Trucking Keep On

On a serious note. this reminds me. we say
lishuascha kivisi Hashem
kivsi Hashem lishuascha
Hashem lishuascha kivsi

The more we call out to Hashem, the closer he comes to us.

Just remember, it's not over when you reach 90, it's just a checkpoint on the road to a lifetime of Kedusha.

So keep on trucking, and watch out for those icy patches!

Gevura!

Welcome aboard!


Stay here for a while

U will get the drift

You will be helped

25 days is huge

Especially when u are pushing back the 900 pound gorilla

I'm also a marbitz torah and a askan

Let's try to do this together


I'm 6 monthts clean as whistle


As we say here

Keep on trucking

One day at a time

Hurtandinpain

Scream fell!!shmell!

Get off the floor

Hop on the truck

We got room for u

Keep on trucking

Hi Hurt,

How's the trucking?

Quote from: hurtandinpain on October 26, 2011, 02:23:43 PM

little different. the pain is way too much to handle. just take away the nisoyin, not having to fight 24/7.  look, i failed for 18 years. will fail again. will burn in hell for everytime i fail. what makes you think that now i "will" be able to handle it. i think the only solution is to die.

We all wish it would "just go away", but we can't know Hashem's chesbonos. He put us here this way for a reason, we are a part of His master plan. But everyone gets the Kochos along with their tests. And He knows we are human, and does not expect instant perfection. All He wants is honest effort and a will to improve. And like Shmeichel says, there are no shortcuts, we need to finish the job. And one dday we will look back and see how beneficial it was for us.

Keep On Trucking, we are right here with you (look over in the next lane, that's me in the red and blue truck with the big tires  ;D )  Gevura!