hey starting over,

I hope you had a good shabbos.

Myself and many others here have and are going through/went through very similar situations. there are three things i would like to share with you.

uno - Hashem loves you so much and I feel like sole brothers with you as well.

dos- Look around and find a plan/program that will work for you, do not just try on your own. make a real plan.

tres - there is something that i think is fundamental and used here on the site alot and that's called Keep on trucking (KOT) and the idea is once we find a program and really start working it, if and if you hit a bump and slip/fall whatever, we need to remember its not over. We get up and move on in the forward direction and that's called KOT.  If we go in to this for the win and suddenly we slip back a bit we can get all frustrated and loose the drive so to speak. and that's why KOT is so important.

Please keep on posting don't go at it alone. Please find a person that you can talk too (i would think other they a rabbi, because you maynot feel like nagging him all the time)

--hm

Hey Sababa!

Last time was 26 days, now 40! See, you are getting better at it each time!

Now get back in the truck, and remember, you're not starting over, you are going forward from where you have already reached.

Good Shabbos and Keep On Trucking!!! (this truck goes on Shabbos too)

Gevura!

Wow what a scary story. I like how you always find something positive to take out of a bad situation.

Keep On Trucking (and keep the doors locked)!!!

Gevura!

(P.S. No, it was not me.....)

Keep on trucking!

yeah rebdovid, don't look back, it does you no good. If it was good for you, you would be looking back at all your Aveiros from a million years ago. Your Aveira 5 minutes ago is no different. Just keep on trucking. I know it's cliche but it's true.

If you're clean for 5 minutes, you can do another 5. Just do it 5 at a time. And then a couple hours at a time...
And then a day at a time.

Love

Kh

Lechaim!!

Keep on Trucking!! (but don't drink and drive!  ;D )

Gevura!

Well the rebbe (that's bardichev, you can check out some of his posts) hasn't been in for a while, but he would say FELL SHMELL KEEP ON TRUCKING.  He would actually instruct you to yell it out loud several times.

Get up buddy, this is just round 1!

keep on trucking
keep trucking on
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trucking keep on
trucking on keep

Hi SE, another relatively newbie here. I have read some of your older stuff and all I can say is you have it tough but you are a real fighter!

Stay strong and Keep On Trucking!!!!!! We will all be here to cheer you on!

Gevura!

Being alone always makes it harder. And i'm the same idiot as you, I would tell myself "He is watching" and then the other voice would say "but you NEEEEEED it SOOOOOOOO bad....."  :-[

Keep On Trucking, one mile day at a time! (Or one hour, one minute, whatever it takes). And watch out for those potholes and slippery spots.

Gevura!

I usually find a short talk with hashem is really a help as well.

Keep on trucking. ~>

keep us posted how your day is going.

Yes, yes, you're doing it.  the beginning for me was about just how really serious I was about stopping falling head first into whatever lust trigger crossed my eyeballs.  I had to really look at what was in front of me--that if I did this, if I was really serious about stopping by any means necessary, then this was going to be forever.  I would be honest with myself that I wasn't going to play around with this program.  No matter if I fell, I was going to take my recovery seriously.  Dead seriously.

Keep on Trucking.  I love how you're taking it one little teeny bit at a time.  And those little bits add up to a day, for which you have been granted a temporary reprieve.

hatzlocho

Welcome aboard!

You have taken a big first step, by joining here and opening up about yourself. There are many different tools and methods available. Read the Handbooks and the FAQs, and browse the forums and see what worked for others. You will be able to choose what works for you. And if you don't have a filter on your computer yet, get one installed right away (there is help for that available here as well).

And most of all, participate here on the forum. Share and support, help and be helped.

Below is the "Official Welcome Package", with lots of links to help you get started.

Hatzlacha and Keep On Trucking^TM!! (stick around here and you will find out what that means!)

Gevura!

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See Orach Chaim Siman 85 Se'if 2 and Mishne Berura Se'if Koton 13.

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But I would venture that this is a last resort, and that it would be better to think of "neutral" things, see Mishne Berura Se'if Koton 5 & 6 for some suggestions.

Hang in there, don't let the falls get you down, it's all part of the slimy bas***d's bag of dirty tricks. And helping others is definitely one of the best ways to help oneself, I find that has been so true for me.

Keep on Trucking!!

Gevura!

Helpme, I'm with you all the way on the mikva thing. Personally I only go Erev Yom Tov, so i'm off the hook until Pesach time.

I don't think it's allowed to think divrei torah in the mik, but maybe considering the alternative....Lately i just think about a red-white-and-blue flying monster truck  .

And when i was in yeshiva i had the same problem, it's hard to concentrate when the eyes are roaming.... :-[

Stealth, I feel for you so much. B"H I did not have the awful experiences you had, but my childhood was very lonely, and i find myself in a similar place now. Stay on board here, open up and share, it's the best thing I ever did.

Let's all Keep On Trucking!!

Gevura!