Knowing of your feelings of pain towards HKBH, I am so so impressed that you turned to Him in your moment of weakness. Realize that this is
growth and hold
on to that!
I see that you are really giving the yh a hard time today! Not
only did the fall lead you to Hashem, but his
real goal is not so much the fall itself, but your reacti
on afterwards. You got it all wr
ong from mr yh perspective! You were mean to wallow in self pity over the fall, to get depressed and pull away from Hashem!
WOW! You ended up giving the yh a few sec
onds, but gave Hashem infinite nachas.
Keep Up the Good Work and wishes for a great shabbos
Thumbs up Brother ....