kutan shel hachabura wrote on 03 Nov 2009 21:24:


Thats what I thought you meant, but the smily at the end threw me.

Glad you stayed strong Gadol shel haKutanim!

HI EVERYONE

IVE BEEN REALLY BUSY

I HAVE LESS TIM TO WRITE

I MIS ALOT ON THE FORUM

AND AS KEDUSHA H MENTIONED

THERE ARE ALOT OF PEOPLE HERE

SOOOOOO PLEASE IF I AM NOT GETTING TO YOU

LET ME KNOW

I HATE TO IGNORE PEOPLE

PLEASE PM ME WRITE IN MY THREADS ( BARDICHEVS BATTLE,PARSHA TIDBITS,WE LOVE THE HEILIGER GUARD,EZRAS NASHIM,TAKING ATTENDANCE ,COUNTRY YIKES!!,AND HARRUS SON.. TO NAME A FEW )

PLEASE KEEP THE BARDICHEVER  ATTITUDE

#1 DON'T JUDGE JEWS BY THEIR EXTERNAL TRAPPINGS
#2 SIMCHA KEEPS THE Y"H AWAY
#3 DRINK WOODFORD (OR 7UP)
#4 FELL SHMELL
#5 KEEP ON TRUCKING (OR BIKING, OR KAYAKING, SNOWMOBILING, BUGABOO PUSHING WHATEVER IT TAKES)
#6 POST AWAY
#7 DAVEN
#8 LAUGH AT YOURSELF!!!
#9 SHE IS NOT "YOUR" PROBLEM FUGGEDABOUTIT!!
#10 SEND A DONATION TO GYE (OR IS IT GUE??)

HUMBLE AND HAPPY
bardichev

Alright, my holy peeps.

Today is a big day.

40 clean days. My longest streak ever. The roughest part is over.

Also, I've been keeping a month-to-month chart of M frequency for 3 years now. Being that its Rosh Chodesh Kislev, I got to put down a 0 for Cheshvan. That's the second 0 on the chart in over 3 years!!

This is real progress.

Hallel yesterday was out of this world. I even splurged and bought myself a present for some positive reinforcement.



Yet, today, I'm feeling down and lonely.
I'll get through it by tomorrow. I know.
It just sucks to be where I am right now.

Worst of all, it really doesn't make sense. It's just some freak mood swing.
I have nothing in the world to worry or be upset about. I'm just not feeling it.

So nu, nu. I'll just keep on trucking until I snap out of it. I always do.



Also, I love you guys. This community has really changed my life. I haven't posted many replies (I don't usually have a lot to add), but I'm reading the forum every night before I sleep.

Thank you.
From the bottom of my heart.
Thank you all!!

EN

you get the keep on trucking award for today!!yay

WHER ARE MY CAPS??

GEVALDIGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Sorry to hear about your fall luria. But please dont give up. We all lose battles so we can win the war. You gotta jst brush yourself off and keep on trucking. Look for the reasons why you fell and try to be more aware of them next time. I try to study my patterns although i dont always have a logical reason behind them. Like my monday thing. Dont know why but i just notice i fll alot on mondays. So i try to take extra caution. Today was and is really hard but im trying to make it through. Please get back to us and let us know your all right. We love you man. For always and ever.

Keep on trucking, man! Wow, so you made 90 days before? Amazing! If you can do it once, you can definitely do it again!

happy thanksgiving!! (hic.) (i will have smoked turkey breast on shabbbos along with kishka picklles matbucha from pomegranate

I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO THA AGUDAH CONVENTION TO HEAR THE SPEECH ON TANGLED UP IN  THE WEB.

RASKEBEHAG

SORRY I WAS REAL BUSY LATELY

DO THE SECOND 90

ONE LITTLE WARNING

"AYN CHASSIDUS K'TCHILLAS HACHASSIDUS"

THE FIRST 90 IS VER VERY HARD BUT VERY REWARDING,BECAUSE WE HAVE A DEFINED GOAL.THE SECOND 90 IS NOT AS "GLAMOROUS"..IT'S MAINTAINIG WHERE WE ARE

KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!!!!!!

When I first started to battle against uptight-ness, somehow I ended up in the clouds.

I'm working now on trying to stay even-keel.

Or, Keep on truckingism.

Not to float too high, and not really to expect to.

And not to sink down, either.

Also, I'm going through a challenging time with my wife.  We're abstinent for medical reasons; I think it's been almost two weeks.  In the past I felt these were self-imposed and blamed them on my wife's baggage (though now I see it was really MY addiction that was fueling the problem).  It was harder to deal with than Niddah, because it didn't seem exactly necessary.

Now I'm handling it really well.

When my wife approached me with this option, I said thanks to GUE we'll be okay.

I was even able to cheerfully consent to postponing a doctor's appointment due to circumstances beyond our control (too many sick kids at home), which also means the end of our abstinence has been postponed.

Eye.nonymous wrote on 26 Nov 2009 18:19:


Reb Eye,
You are really an inspiration.

Thank you.

kutan

bardichev wrote on 26 Nov 2009 17:21:


Bardichev
You should GIVE the speech on tangled with the web

kutan

wow Bh heavy post. But with the attitude you got youll go a long way!! hatzlacha and keep on trucking.

bardichev wrote on 14 Dec 2009 21:04:


KEEP ON TRUCKING! 

HOLD ON BRO!!!!!!!!!!!! STRETCH YOUR HAND OUT AND WELL GRAB YOU AND HELP YOU WALK THIS TIGHTROPE. DONT TRY AND DO IT YOURSELF. WE LOVE YOU BRO. KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey Ano keep on roaring. If you do eventually the yh will get scared off and run. Oh and maybe send some ammo his way. KEEP ON TRUCKING AMO!

No need to be shy about it Habib. thanks for stopping by. Im sp impressed by what your doing with rage. You guys are holding by 37 days or something no? Wow kol hakavos to you. Keep on trucking. And keep on being an inspiration for all of us here on GYE.

Good luck man on the exams. Keep on trucking!

Hey C2P, your not alone! I was in a very similar situation when I was in my yeshivah days, I also had p**n exposure very early, I also crashed a little after getting serious. And I'm married, in kollel, doing great, and I look forward to every day of my life. It is possible, it is doable, you can fix everything up, and you can be the good erlicher yid that you really are, you just need to jump in and ride along!
All I can say is "Welcome home!" There was never a place like this where hatzalas nefashos happens every day, and to anyone who's willing to accept himself for who he is. The path is there, and it's well traveled. All you need to take along for the journey, is trust in H-shem, and some of what bards calls 'KOT,NMW' - KEEP ON TRUCKING NO MATTER WHAT!!! And you will eventually get there.
And hey, you gotta keep us posted here, no leaving your friends here hanging

hi IT!
i love your new pic...
and what's with the shver day?
your supposed to tell in advance... so that we plan the chizzuk jk
imtrying, you wake this place up when your around.
we can't let u be sad...
smile, and tomorrow (well, today for you) is another day.
a whole new day to work on what was bothering you,to fix it up, and to be satisfied and happy
and as a very famous rebbi says... kot (keep on trucking)
as a very famous lady says... ngu (never give up)

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!

ovadia wrote on 21 Dec 2009 14:24:


Rav Ovadia,
I don't really understand your logic. We've all fallen over and over, so no reason to feel embarrassed. What's inspiring is that we are all still trying, and keep on trucking, believing that the day will come when we've finally arrived.
Then again, I can't tell you how to feel or not feel.

Good to hear from you, Tzama! Keep on Trucking!