Keep on trucking!!!  IT25 is right, forget the number of days. 

sci1977 wrote on 11 Feb 2010 16:07:
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY IM FINALLY RIGHT!!!! It took me almost 2700 posts to get to this!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

no breaks. keep on trucking!!!  I know you will succeed to 90 and beyond.

Keep on trucking rage.  14 days is great!!

imtrying25 wrote on 11 Feb 2010 18:13:


thank you sir for that info. 

SB, keep on trucking.  I think when we do well in those times of trouble and we break through them is when we realize that we really are succeeding in becoming better people and certainly we prove we can stay on our journey.

what a great post. Hope your self improvement goes well.  Keep on trucking!!!

Hey guys,

Thanks so much for the chizuk. I just acted on one of your suggestions and talked to a friend who is almost like an accountability partner.

I had strong urges to look at pictures of swimsuit models, which I have banned myself from doing. Nevertheless, my good old pal the YH managed to convince me that it wasn't soft porn and that I wasn't trying to perv over them, but merely trying to satisfy my curiosity. All this despite me having seen them thousands of times before and knowing full well that such things led to the viewing of even worse images......

Somehow, in moments like these, I find that I can choose to do the right thing not by feeling emotionally, but only by thinking what is right and wrong intellectually.

I've been saved for today by your timely intervention!

Ever played rainbow 6 on the Xbox? Well you guys were just like the snipers covering my backside!

Anyway, Hatzlacha and keep on trucking!

TC,

DL

Uch! What a bad day to end the night. So the rabbi who was supposed to test me just ditched me instead to go to someone's vort. Then I hocked around trying to figure out flights for Pesach, and I clicked on something I shouldn't have and saw something I shouldn't have for a few seconds, and now I'm lonely and want to act out. Wonderful. Good going, NOYA.

Well, nah, I don't feel like I was really triggered, but I'm upset at the rabbi. Stood me up. This whole week is full of cancellations I tell ya.

Have a good Shabbos everyone! I'll keep on trucking if you keep on trucking!

sci1977 wrote on 11 Feb 2010 14:18:


Yeah, I almost lost it after I hit 90.  Had this feeling like--okay, show's over.
I keep on counting, it helps me to remember I have to keep on working at this.

Keep on trucking.  Have a great Shabbos!!

Keep on trucking rage,  Have a great shabbos.  every day is a gift from G-d and every day clean makes that gift even sweeter.

SB, have a great Shabbos!!  Keep on trucking!!

Great to hear! Remember that really, every second that we stay clean is exciting, even though it's not always easy to remember that!

You know what works best for you - make sure there are as many "practical hurdles" as possible, and keep on trucking! Post about when you're having a hard time...and know that we're all here for you!

keep on trucking!!

Sb, If you are you, and someone doesn't like you, it doesn't matter.  Just go through it.  Other will like you!  KEEP ON TRUCKING!!

Glad you changed your name but I would think about changing it again. We do not look for control here, only sanity.

You ask why a filter? You say MY WIFE WILL FIGURE OUT I HAVE AN ISSUE AND THEN WHO KNOWs WHAT SHE WILL DO!!!

We say: chill out. I also thought that if I mentioned the word 'filter' EVERYONE will know I struggle (by the way, who is 'everyone' that we are always afraid of?) Guess what I brought up the 'F' word and lived to tell the tale.

See, part of this addiction thing is that we have a very funny perception of the world. One place it comes out is in "FILTER" and other safe guards.

Blame the filter on your Rabbi. If he does not think you need a filter GET A NEW RABBI!!!
Also the was a very interesting article about the internet in Mishpacha Magazine this week. Get it show it to your wife.

You ask if I get I filter that will solve my problem?

I say: If that is true so why not get 100 of them? Do you like 'living' like this?

I also say: the real answer is that YOU ARE WRONG!!!!!!

Lust addiction is not AT ALL about the urge to lust.

It is about you or me trying to hide from our feelings. We have feelings we are trying to hide from, that we are afraid of, that we are petrified of, so we look for something to hide in. Some hide in drugs, some in food, some in alcohol. We happened to find lust first.

You and I need a filter so we can stop lusting and listen to ourselves and learn what we are trying to hide from. Once we figure it out we can start to work on it.

I suggest you get a good book on self esteem for starters. You should also think about learning Ali Shur from Rav Wolbe or something similar. 


BEST OF LUCK and keep on trucking and posting.

Fantastic! Keep on trucking!

Keep on trucking!!!

Hey there, keep on trucking.  Hope your feeling better today.  Stay positive and it will lead to positive things.

Great news Noya!!  Keep on trucking.  I love that you are trying to stay positive.