Hi Mr. Tahor, this is Mr. Tahor
Just wanted to welcome you and say that I identify with your situati
on and your frustrati
on. I also felt for a l
ong time that it didn't matter what tachboulos I did and what strategies I employed, I would always end up at the same place:
on the internet. But, as you put it, being part of a "chevra", was a real turning point for me. I think that after enough time of making a sincere effort, and it sounds like you are making a very sincere effort, Hashem says "enough" and then something triggers an aliyah and things just get easier. The strength of the YH is curtailed just enough to let you see some success which builds
on itself. Not that life becomes a walk in the park. But Hashem gives you the tools you need. I think finding GYE, and by finding I mean starting to post
on the forum, was a turning point and I hope it will be for you too. And there is much more you can do if the Forum is not enough. You can get accountability partners, you can join ph
one groups etc. etc. Others can explain what GYE has to offer better than I can.
I'll c
onclude with what has become the watch-phrase here :
Keep on Trucking!