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bardichev's battle
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Re: bardichev's battle 02 Feb 2010 16:43 #50596

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bardichev wrote on 02 Feb 2010 16:41:

THAT WAS MY FIRST AVATAR



I think you should bring it back,  You even have a pub now.  Glad your doing well.  Keep on trucking with both hands on the wheel.
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Re: bardichev's battle 02 Feb 2010 17:10 #50608

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OLD AVATAR
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Re: bardichev's battle 02 Feb 2010 17:28 #50618

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Bard, how you doing? I'm getting a very similiar feeling, the yh quietly gathering for an attack.

We have to keep on trucking!! No woodford for me till shabbos!
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Re: bardichev's battle 02 Feb 2010 19:04 #50677

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OK

BUT TILL SHABBAT

I CAN HAVE
2 SIYUMS

ONE OR 2 VACTNACHTS

3 YAHRTZIETS

WHAT ELSE??

YOU SEE IN BARDSTOWN KY THINGS GET REAL BUSY

ITS LIKE THE EAST COAST OF BOROPARK
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Re: bardichev's battle 02 Feb 2010 22:19 #50739

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Reb yid, what would you do without dead tzadikkim?
Oh, I forgot they never die!
Admin put these lines here cuz he likes 'em:
"The heart needs to be broken when will-power is not enough"
"Get off the 18-Wheeler and onto a tricycle!"
"The heck with me, what can I do for you?"
"I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons!"
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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 12:12 #50842

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I felt a sudden urge to post this:

Hello to everyone here. I am truly humbled to be here. It is the most wonderful thing.
I can not believe that today is my 31st day without any assur internet whatsoever. Without any bittul zeman internet. I can't believe it myself I am so happy.
Just four weeks ago I couldn't sit in front of my computer without peeking just for a few minutes at all the filth that the Y"H brought my way.
Just four weeks ago I was the lowest person in the world living the biggest lie. Just four weeks ago I was crying under my desk and I really wanted to change. Indeed in the past I made strong kabbalos I gave myself all kinds of mussar I applied all kinds of advice but I never was able to ever go 2 weeks clean.
I B”H found a lifeline GYE I realized 3 things
A. there is a way to recover
B. that I am an addict an addiction will need recovery not that I’m just crazy or SHVACH .
C. there are other people in the same boat that are honestly working on changing their lives.
At that point I didn’t feel that I deserved to be on the forum let alone on the WOH ["Wall of Honor," which allows members to receive recognition for their number of days clean]. So I kept my own journal for two full weeks. It was so hard to change but all the chizuk from reading all the posts on GYE pushed me along.
I still can’t believe that I am clean for a month. I am not trying to delude myself to say I arrived. I REALLY need all the encouragement to reach my short term goal of 90 days. I am really taking it one day at a time. I am davening for Siyata diShmaya.
I realize that the battle of the Y”H is a full time job. My shemiras ainiyim is on a very good level B”H.I am scared that I will fall so I am really setting small goals.
I came to this realization that I couldn’t stop my self until I admitted that I was an addict; not that this was just a bad habit, rather this is my addiction. Once I knew I was an addict I was able to accept advice from all the people on the forum because until one doesn’t ADMIT he can’t be helped because its not for him.
I started to realize that the power of TEFILLA is so great.
I had a wonderful insight in the tefilla we say “VCHOF ES YITZREINU LHISHTABED LACH” we daven that Hashem should force Y”H to be subjugated to HIM. All my life I davened that “my” Y”H should be controlled by “me” . NO NO NO I have learned from the first of the twelve steps we are begging Hashem to force the Y”H to be under HIS control. (I am saying this as a chizuk not trying to delve into deep questions that deal with Emunah).
May all our friends here be the source of inspiration that we all become truly the HEILIGE NESHAMOS WE WERE GIVEN AT BIRTH.
Please give me the chizuk (and mussar too) to reach my goal.
May Hashem bentch each and every one of us.
Humbled and happy
bardichev
Webmaster of www.guardyoureyes.org - Maintaining Moral Purity in Today's World. We’re here on a quest ; it’s really all a test. Just do your best and G-d will do the rest.
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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 12:20 #50846

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Thanks Guard!!! It was nice reading that again!!

And Bards we yidden live one big party!!! Its just what we do in between thats the question. Msimchah lesimchah!!! Keep on drinkin i mean truckin!!!
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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 14:25 #50872

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GuArD that was so thoughtful

Gnawing Shmawing



KEEP
ON TRUCKIN!!

Thank you!!
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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 14:34 #50873

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If we are doing the "Best of the B's" today, below is one of my favorites
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bardichev wrote on 03 Aug 2009 17:37:

I POSTED THIS IN YECHIDA

IT IS TOO GOOD (IN ALL BARDICHEVER HUMILITY)

ME-AT MIN HA OHR DO-CHE HARBEH!!!! MIN HACHOSHECH

HKB"H CREATED THE WORLD AND THE "ADAM" TO BE YASHAR

THE WORLD IS CROOKED CORRUPTED BENT AND BROKEN

IT IS NOT AT IT'S "TACHLIS" YET

WHEN YOU "CHOOSE" NOT TO GO ON YOUTUBE

SOMEONE SOMEWHERE WILLNOT BUY A PLA***y MAGAZINE

WHEN YOU "CHOOSE" NOT TO GO ON FOLLOW A LINK TAHT IS SO TANTILIZING

SOMEONE SOMEWHERE WILL NOT MAST****

WHEN YOU "CHOOSE" NOT TO STARE AT A SCANTILY CLAD PERSON(OF SORTS )

SOMEONE SOMEWHERE WILL NOT ACT OUT ON HIS LUST

WHEN YOU "CHOOSE" NOT TO READ DIRTY MAGAZINES

SOMEONE SOMEWHERE AND SOME HOW A P*** MOVIE FILE WILL CRASH

WHEN YOU "CHOOSE" NOT TO TALK TRASH

SOME HOW A LITTLE BOY IN CHEDER WILL LEARN TORAH WITH MORE ENTHUSIASM

WHEN YOU INSTALL A FILTER

A SEFER TORAH WILL BE WRITTEN

WHEN YOU DELETE YOUR OLD GARBAGE

SOMEONE WILL DRESS TZNIUSDIK


WHO IS THAT SOME ONE IT CAN BE ME OR YOUR CHILDEREN OR MAYBE EVEN YOU YOURSELF

ME-AT MIN HA-OHR
DO-CHE HARBEHHHHH MIN HACHOSHECH

LET US DO OUR ME-AT

HAMIKADESH ATZMO ME-AT MIKADSHIN OSO HARBEH

WE CAN NOT WIPE OUT THE Y"H

WE CAN NOT SHUT DOWN THE INTERNET

WE CAN NOT WIPE  OUT THE P*** INDUSTRY

WE CAN NOT TELL OUR OWN SISTERS TO DRESS IN A MORE MODETST WAY

WE CAN TELL OUR BROTHERS TO NOT LUST

WE CAN NOT TELL PEOPLE NOT TO FEEL EXCITED FROM IMMORAL VIEWS

SO WHAT CAN WE DO

BRING A LITTLE KEDUSHA IN OUR WORLD

OY YOY VETAHER LIBEINU LI-OVDECHA BE-EMES

bardichev

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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 15:40 #50885

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Gevaldigggggg

Keep it coming!!!

There is no room for.
Gnawing

For
Blues
For
Doldrums

FUGGEDABOUTIT!!!
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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 16:03 #50894

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Bardy-boy,

Just wanted to poke my runny nose in here for a sec, to say how much I appreciated that quote of yours that got into yesterday's Chizuk Email. REALLY GREAT STUFF!!

(BTW - How do you look at your blackberry while you're driving your truck?)
No one is so small that he can not give help, and no one is so big that he doesn't need it.

Kol HaOlam Kulo, Gesher Tzar Meod, V'HaIkkar: Lo L'Pacheid Klal.
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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 16:30 #50900

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STEVE U R THE ONY ONE ON THIS FORUM THAT ACTUALLY SAW MY TRUCK

BARRELLING DOWN UR SLICE OF THE EAST COAST

THANKS

B

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Re: bardichev's battle 03 Feb 2010 22:30 #51021

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Thanks Steve, for that fresh slice of bardy! It feels like dipping in a mikvah filled with simcha (with the clothes on, of course).
Here's a tissue.
Admin put these lines here cuz he likes 'em:
"The heart needs to be broken when will-power is not enough"
"Get off the 18-Wheeler and onto a tricycle!"
"The heck with me, what can I do for you?"
"I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons!"
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Re: bardichev's battle 05 Feb 2010 15:14 #51450

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Bards, love all the threads.  Thanks for keeping me laughing.  Keep on trucking!!

Have a wonderful shabbos!!
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Re: bardichev's battle 05 Feb 2010 17:31 #51464

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THANK HASHEM FOR ALL THE GOODNESS HE SHOWERS UPON ME

ALTHOUGH I AM HIGHLY UNDESERVING!!!!!!!!!!!!



OY YOY SHABBOS KOIDESH!!

OYOY OY SHABBOS KOIDESH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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