Day 55/91
I hope that you guys don’t mind that I didn’t respond right away to what you all wrote to me. I often wish that I could be more active on the forum but it takes me so long to read everything and then to think of what to write back that by the time I am able to, I feel that it is a bit out of date. Also I always feel that I am taking advantage in that I only post my own things and I don’t respond on other threads. But on days like today when I have
“that feeling” and I know that back then I would have given in by now, I know that GYE is what keeps me going and that I have to keep active contact.
But, I do save what you wrote and every so often I read it and when I do it gives my Neshomo a silent feeling of connection with you guys which tells me that I have to keep going.
So, I just wanted to say again how much I appreciate all the chizuk both direct and indirect and that I hope that I you understand me.
Briut wrote on 23 Feb 2010 13:42:
Hi! I just realized, in an accurate counting, that I'm at day 42. 42/42 (fall-free, k'eh). Pretty much where you are.
I was very happy to hear that you are doing so well. I hope that you have kutgw since then too.
silentbattle wrote on 23 Feb 2010 16:21:
Definitely - I know that posting here forces me to consider what I'm feeling, what's going on, etc. That's one of the wonderful things about GYE!
SB - A belated Mazel Tov on your reaching 90. You cannot imagine how good it made me feel. Another tremendous Kidush HaShem. One day you will have to teach me how you manage to write so many beautiful responses to so many different people. It seems like you are always there for everyone and I really admire you.
imtrying25 wrote on 23 Feb 2010 19:02:
I can totally understand you on this pint.
Keep it rollin and hatzlacha rabbah. I did miss you though! :-\
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:D
Thank you for identifying and thanks for being so special.
After I wrote all that, I realized that at least for me there is a big difference between when I am focused and when I am not. This requires more organized thought and I intend Bli Neder to put some of those thoughts to paper as soon as I am able to.