Day 39 posting… day 1 clean.
Bh no porn. I know it’s not clean, but no porn is huge for me. Chasdei Hashem I have newfound motivation to not watch, and not based on guilt. A good therapy sessions and a talk with my rebbe. I did M and the YH was smart. He told me I’d surely fall later in the night or erev shabbos with both P and M so why not just do M now because you won’t be strong enough on day 4 and have a bigger fall. Part of me believes the YH. I don’t know. Feeling strong today. Went to the Mikvah and feelings good. Truly feeling the benefits of having not recently watching P and using that as motivation to continue to resist watching.
