Tired, a bit stressed, but doing OK...thanks!

Anybody home?? :-\

Hey guys (and gals if they read this),

I'm one month (28 days) clean as of this morning. That means I graduate to the next class and receive an "Eved Hashem" crown when I next update my chart status. Woot!

I was called up to the Torah yesterday at mincha time and really tried to channel the positive energy. I know I'm not alone when I say that there is a feeling of guilt/unworthiness when receiving a kavod after having acted out in a way which is not befitting such an honour but B"H that feeling was not present yesterday. I feel as if I'm finally losing that dual personality which I've created through years of private porn and mb abuse. That's a comforting thought.

imtrying25 wrote on 30 Jan 2010 22:18:

Thanks for checking in on me, IT25. How are you travelling?

Halevi wrote on 30 Jan 2010 22:45:
It most definitly is! Keep on truckin my holy brother! Your doing great!! Halevi wrote on 30 Jan 2010 22:46:
Having some bumps here and there you know. But im going forward. And thats the nmost important. Although we may make itstops along the way, as long as were going forward eventually well get there. No?

Halevi wrote on 30 Jan 2010 22:45:


Absolutely. I think that part of that is also opening up (like here, on the forum), so it's not a secret anymore. When it's "our" secret, I feel like it becomes a bigger part of us, occupies more of our energy, etc.

I'm really happy to hear that you're doing great, and feeling even better!! ;D

Thanks guys. You're all awesome. Keep on drinking whatever it is bards prescribes and trucking along that highway.

You're part of the "guys," too - so that makes you double-awesome!

Drinking and driving??? :o :o

Not So Silent,

You are partners with that Silent Voice that booms out of Mount Sinai every day.

hey, can't you see he's a ninja? Silent, and all?  :D

Wow...I don't even know what to say! Especially coming from you, that's an incredible compliment...

Halevi, keep us posted, we're all excited to hear that you're doing well!

Aifo halevi??

And yes in bardstown kentucky it is legal to drink and drive!!

Hey mate,

I'm around mate. If I'm quiet for a few days it's usually because I have nothing to say 

Hope everyone is doing well.

I guess , as they say, no news is good news. So keep up the no news halevi!!!!   :D :D :D  ;D ;D ;D

hi, halevi.
im greatful to tell you that you passed the hard period .
to my little experience the urge should be more and more weak as much as you continue to stay clean.

i wish you luck man.  8) 8)

One of the reasons i like this forum, is that posting regularly forcves me to examine myself and FIND something to say.