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Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 05 Feb 2023 03:04 #391579

Day #10.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 05 Feb 2023 13:05 #391597

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Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 08 Feb 2023 01:27 #391754

Day #13.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 09 Feb 2023 00:54 #391792

Day #14.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 10 Feb 2023 01:34 #391845

Day #15.

Last night, I had an urge. This is the text message I wrote to HHM:

10:46PM
Update: Still all good.
Having thoughts about a fall. I've already shut my devices off for the night and I'm going to bed. Will update you in the morning with a successful report.


Then...



7:07AM
All good.


I do want to post more about what happened 15 days ago, but basically, I had relied on the filter on my personal computer as a license to do whatever I wanted online. That goes both for what content to view and how much time I was spending on it. That attitude, time spent, and what I was viewing contributed to me letting my guard down and either finding an unfiltered device or finding something close to pornography that wasn't filtered.

When I realized that I needed to remove the filter for my night school, I had to muster up the sense of responsibility to control my Internet usage. I'm not saying that I have been perfect these last 15 days and have only used the Internet for something that was absolutely necessary, but I do have a new sense of caution with my computer. That alone is not enough and that is why I continue to post here and text HHM.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 10 Feb 2023 02:28 #391847

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How about finding a filter that fits your needs?
 *  NO, It's not all or nothing, just every bit counts!
 *  I failed yesterday, and I might fail tomorrow. But just for today I'm going to give it a try.
 *  Being curios made me lust and get into trouble.
אָמַר רבי יוחנן: אֵבֶר קָטָן יֵשׁ לוֹ לָאָדָם, מַרְעִיבוֹ = שָׂבֵעַ, מַשְׂבִּיעוֹ = רָעֵב

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Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 14 Feb 2023 03:24 #392044

Day #19. This is the longest I have gone for a while. Staying the course...

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 14 Feb 2023 09:50 #392056

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שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 10 Feb 2023 01:34:
Day #15.

I do want to post more about what happened 15 days ago, but basically, I had relied on the filter on my personal computer as a license to do whatever I wanted online. That goes both for what content to view and how much time I was spending on it. That attitude, time spent, and what I was viewing contributed to me letting my guard down and either finding an unfiltered device or finding something close to pornography that wasn't filtered.


Quote from @Dov: The strongest filter is the one I never test
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Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 15 Feb 2023 00:56 #392098

jackthejew wrote on 14 Feb 2023 09:50:
Quote from @Dov: The strongest filter is the one I never test

Love it. 

Day #20. 

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 17 Feb 2023 00:21 #392194

Day #22.

I want to share something about my experience. I may have shared this already in this thread. For me, after the first 10-14 days, the nagging urge to masturbate and look at pornography goes away. This is the case now. I have no interest in it and have not had an urge to do so for over a week. At this point, my struggle is staying accountable and connected and not letting my guard down. A different struggle and in some ways harder because it doesn't feel like a struggle. At this point, I am already feeling like I am past the struggle of masturbation and pornography (ridiculous because I've been dealing with this for 20 years). My goal (and my hope) is that I will continue to post here and stay accountable in other ways, so that I will continue to be aware that all it takes is one slip up and I am back to dealing with actual masturbation and pornography viewing.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 18 Feb 2023 22:46 #392257

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שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 17 Feb 2023 00:21:
Day #22.

I want to share something about my experience. I may have shared this already in this thread. For me, after the first 10-14 days, the nagging urge to masturbate and look at pornography goes away. This is the case now. I have no interest in it and have not had an urge to do so for over a week. At this point, my struggle is staying accountable and connected and not letting my guard down. A different struggle and in some ways harder because it doesn't feel like a struggle. At this point, I am already feeling like I am past the struggle of masturbation and pornography (ridiculous because I've been dealing with this for 20 years). My goal (and my hope) is that I will continue to post here and stay accountable in other ways, so that I will continue to be aware that all it takes is one slip up and I am back to dealing with actual masturbation and pornography viewing.

Oh, how I relate to this post..........

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 19 Feb 2023 03:14 #392265

Day #24.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 20 Feb 2023 01:59 #392336

Day #25.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 21 Feb 2023 02:20 #392392

Day #26.

Staying connected to GYE. 

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 21 Feb 2023 03:16 #392398

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שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 21 Feb 2023 02:20:
Day #26.

Staying connected to GYE. 

I’m staying connected to you buddy! Keep it up! 
Btw I’m sure you know the gimatryah of 26… אה!
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

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