I have decided after a long time of successive falls that it is time to take this to the next stage, and reach out to the people at GYE to get through recovery and become clean as a result.
After speaking w/ Michael, I believe I have the resources now at this website to be successful, and I will be using this forum post as a blog to track my progress throughout the program. At the end of the day, I need the help and encouragement of the people on this forum to help me through, and will be going through the partner / sponsor program to have someone to turn to ensure that I am successful.
My longest streak over being clean is about 2 weeks, and it has been a tough road for me to overcome, but I know I can do it.
Progress:
Day 1 - Clean, set up forum posts