Pretty cool how things like that work out! i am glad that you are feeling so good! Keep focused and busy!

My eyes are red,
my nose is runny.
Around me 'tis said,
"My, you look funny."

Another great day today of hard work, learning, friends, etc. Allergies are still hitting full power though, and zapping my strength, and also taking away from my concentration. I slept more than eight hours last night because of them, but I still felt pretty bad. But I'm trying my best here, made it to the call, and am slowly but surely building myself up again.

Day 4: Good job!

Hang in there, NOYA.

Friend of mine cured herself from allergies using The Water Cure. She's an example that it works.

Check it up on line. Couldn't hurt to try?

HAve a GREAT SHABBOS!!

Shabbat Shalom NOYA!!

Hey Steve, thanks for the tip. I'll be sure to check it out. I was overtaken over bein hazmanim by the yetzer hara to watch a certain TV show that is ending soon. Lemaisa I started watching it and there are only 4 more episodes left so I'm finishing it, but there has been a fair amount of pritzus in it. There was a beach scene in today's episode so that wasn't good for me. But hopefully I'll be fine and just forget about it. Otherwise today was pretty good. I learned a lot more than on a usual Friday.

Have a good Shabbos, everybody! Shabbat Shalom, struggla21!

Day 5 - Pretty good! LIVE, NOYA! Be positive!

If you are not able to avoid thinking about it picture a beached whale instead of what ever it was you saw! that ought to help! 

Just wishing you the best...sometimes, even if you really want to watch it, you can push it off for a few minutes...that's valuable, too.

Keep on rocking!

Haha, image replacement techniques, huh? Unfortunately those don't really work for me, but hey, do whatever works for you. And thanks for stopping by, silentbattle. I don't want to let you guys down again. So many of you have made it to 90 days. It's possible - I see with my own eyes, and it's a real chizuk for me to have you guys talking with me and helping me move forward.

And of course, you can push off the taivah for a few minutes, but this is one of those things I just gotta finish. Y'know. Just gotta. . Reminds me one time where I had that krum svara to watch all six "episodes" of some pornographic series because if I didn't finish I would always wonder how it ended and not be able to move on. Well, it's not exactly the same because this other show really isn't so bad. It's a fascinating show, actually, whose draw is the plot and mystery, rather than the hot female characters. There aren't really any hot female characters except one, and she's not in the spotlight at all these days. There was another one, but she died the first episode. Another decent looking one died last episode. I guess there was too much pritzus and the show decided to get rid of the characters so I could watch it .

Shabbos was great and doing wonderfully so far.

Day 6 - Doing well with Hashem's holy help.

hi Noya.

Noya, it's a long haul to get outa the muck. You think this one series is the only ace the YH has in his pocket? After this one there will be another one to take it's place in your interest. How you ever gonna break the cycle??

There is ONE thing you can start NOW, it'll eventually have it's effect on you, and eventually you will be able to make choices that are healthier for your neshomah:

THE RAAVAD'S TAYNUS.

Take out a Rosh Hashannah Machzor, the Artscroll has a great translation if you need it, and in the beginning you'll find the Yesod Hateshuva by Rebbeinu Yonah. It's kedai to read the whole thing every day if the YH will let you. But for now, read what he says about this small, daily fast of leaving over a little food from each meal at the end. This is an excellent method of conditioning yourself not to give in to all your teivos. You WILL develop the ability to say NO to drugs of choice, which is the first step in real freedom. But read how he describes it - it's beautiful and moving.

My suggestion, start this method today, and do it steadfastly for every day of your 90 day count. One can not fast on Shabbos and Yom Tov, even this kind, but one could work on the program on those days by CONSCIOUSLY taking a little less of his favorite food, or of each course. It's still ONEG SHABBOS, and you'll have the wonderful feeling of doing it for Hashem's sake.

tootles....

Agreeing with Steve here - there's always "one more" thing you need to watch, for whatever reason. And as you pointed out yourself, you can find a rationalization for watching inappropriate things.

I feel that even if you feel you need to watch it, pushing it off for a few minutes is valuable in and of itself. Of course, you should also realize that you DO have the ability to stop, right now. You're trying to convince yourself that this is something you need - you need to remember that it's not. Choose what you want, but please do realize that you're making a choice.

Most importantly, though, this is not matter of letting us down. We're here for you, no matter what. But it's a shame, because you have the ability to grow, and get free from these chains.

Go for it!

Hi, DovinIsrael. Steve, I'll be sure to take a look at the Rayvad's taynus and thanks for stopping by. Silentbattle, thank you for the constant chizuk whether I'm doing well or not.

Anyway, I've been feeling so crappy the last few days. Not only am i suffering from allergies, but I'm developing other symptoms too such as occasional trouble breathing, a horrible infection that has me in constant pain, and headaches. I know it isn't an excuse but it was enough to get me to act out last night. When I'm feeling this way it's so hard to do anything else. When am I starting the count again? I'm not sure yet. Eventually. Maybe when I'm out of this illness.

I did manage to have a fairly good day today regardless of being sick as a dog. I made it to the call, must have sounded pretty depressed on the phone, but I felt it would be a good idea for me to read for the group. When I take an active role I feel more connected to the call.

How is everyone else doing? What's going on in your lives?

It's funny how, when we're feeling miserable, we can still muster up the energy to act out...when should you start counting again? Right now. You want to live your life, you don't want to delay that!

And I'm honored to be able to stand at your side.

Hi Noya,

I think I've developed allergies myself. feels like a fly went up my nose, and every so often in stretches its wings. i dont know how ppl survive this...

Every day, every second is a new chance. Just take it.
I'm doing the same, right now.