I'll put in a little more today to make up for my one word post yesterday. Things are still moving along over here. Unfortunately, or fortunately, depending on how you look at it, I don't really have shiur for a while (around a week), so I'll be able to put in some more time in studying so I can make sure I pass this test in ONE WEEK, AHHHHHH! Yeah, one week and one hour from now I'll be in that room sweating bullets I imagine. My fingers are sweating just thinking about it, sorry keyboard.
The truth is I don't really get THAT nervous about tests. It's somewhat artificial because I like giving myself the adrenaline rush. It's exciting for me - probably more exciting in a way than taivah. Yeah, definitely, because I'm bored of taivah. All the same garbage over and over again, who needs that stuff? As long as a person has a life, has friends, has what to do with himself, and generally steers clear of problems, he should be all right, hopefully.
Yesterday I had some minor minor issues. I was on a weblog of this investment banker and he had a video on there about stupid interview mistakes, so apparently the video was about this prutz who went to the interview and explained that the reason he wanted to be an investment banker was for the models and bottles. Unfortunately, he depicted his desire visually in the video and my poor eyes endured about 30 seconds of club scene before I asked myself why I was watching this stupid video to begin with, and why I was allowing my eyes to be exposed to a bunch of unattractive men and women clubbing and acting like prutzas.
So I turned it off and felt better. Baruch Hashem I didn't get triggered, but I have to be more careful of these things. I also took a second peek at a woman yesterday. I have to ramp up my day today to get my defense back to 100%. But yesterday was pretty good all around, and today is Day 13. This campaign is flying!
Also, I applaud Guard's decision to separate the men and women here. What was the hava amina for it to NOT be separate to begin with? Does it make sense for a bunch of sex addicts to be able to post and chat with members of the opposite sex? Hello? Trigger?