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Now what are you gonna do differently that will help you gain sobriety?

With me it was giving up certain neutral sites like fox news- that would ever so subtlety begin to lead me astray. I do not go on even clean sites. The forum taught me this.
My general attitude on looking as I leave the house or walk the streets or I am on the subway has changed.
The suggestions of the guys on the forum have enriched my defenses.
Prayer with extra Kavana- no crazy shockelling or weird contortions of the face- just a silent connection to the Almighty - showing and expressing my total reliance on his assistance. Hashgacha Pratis

add/change things that show Hashem you are making a new Hishtadlus.
To return with only a strong will to succeed and no different modifications will most likely lead you back top a fall as the guilt and bad feelings begin to fade.
Express to him in true Tefila that you cannot take it anymore - it is time for you to live your precious life/Tachlis that Hashem graciously gave you - instead of living this world and the next in failure sorrow and depression.
What are you waiting for?
As I expressed to you before you have what it takes. Just do some tweeking- get back on the wagon- and breathe the exhilarating air of freedom.

Looking forward to hear of your achievement!