ahhhh!
A BREATH OF FRESH AIR ON THE FORUM!!!!
welcome aboard, Mr. I am Trying 25 (whats the 25 about?)!
Its clear that your going to fit in and be successful. (success doesn't mean not ever falling, so don't worry :D :D :D! all it means is REALLY trying, which you are, of course. )
Anyway, my name is kutan shel hachabura, and I'm pleased to meet you.
Posting anonymously will bring out stuff in you that you never knew you had. I for example NEVER introduce myself to people in the physical world, although my wife has been trying to teach me for ages.
Anything smart I'm going to post, in response to your posts, will only be things I've learnt on the forum. So my advise is to scour the forum. Read 7up's thread, and read Bardichev's battle, and read the posts from a fellow called Jack (amazing guy, he was my first inspiration on the forum, and went through alot of the stuff that you are describing). And then there are Dov's posts, whom you've already met, although Dov's posts are often like expensive wine... you need to already be an expert to understand them fully (not that I'm one... I email guard and he explains it to me)
another guy wrote how he promises himself that it will only be today that he will be good. And tomorrow he promises the YH he will give in. Sometimes he has to sweeten the deal for the YH, and promise that he will give in 3 times tomorrow! :D
Of course, tomorrow he tells the YH the exact same thing.
anyway, looking forward to reading your thread and being inspired!
kutan