I was just cheppering Guard. But thanks anyways. i could always use the boost.

Sorry R Dov here i disagree. I wouldnt be disappointed cuz the part of you i wanna meet i met here already. Your outer apperances have nothing to do with this. I wanna meet you so we can discuss things thoroughly and we can understand each other better. I feel sometimes when your just writing you cant always get your point thri=ough exactly the way you want.

I hope i didnt make any indication not like this. Of course we can. This will only benefit me more than i can imagine. So im all in. ;D

NOYA wrote on 26 Nov 2009 02:18:

Hey NOYA dont put the blame on Dov. Its me whos doing the overanalyzing. Dovs trying to get through my thick skull that i should not be doing this. But like i said before, i aint goin' down without a fight.

hi bro! sorry i've been so busy! i havn't forgotten your awesome thread!
have a super sober shabbos!!!!!!!!!

Keep it up, man! I was hoping to go all the way to 90 with you, but looks like you'll have to lead.

yeh, I've been wondering where you're at...

guardureyes wrote on 01 Dec 2009 06:42:

me too 

We miss all the good stuff you used to post..

and I sorta got used to having a tryer 2 around...

...won't post more than one-liners if you come back ;D...hope you are doing well  ???....Hi there, imtrying25 8)!

Ok so im back. And im back with my head hanging low. And with myspirits even lower. I had a really down week. In so many ways. It all started off last thursday night. Couldnt sleep. Maybe i caught the insomnia thing that some people on here suffer from. But whatever i dont know. I was up till about six. And of course when im bored my y"h works full force. Now comes the worst part. What i usually do in a situation like this is get on to gye and read posts read chizuk post my own thoughts etc etc. Problam was i couldnt access the site. It wouldnt download. Try as i may it wasnt working. But of course everything else worked. And eventually i got past the filter and im sure you can figure out the rest. And i couldnt really get myself off the floor since. Today im clean hoping it stays this way. But ive lost some of the spirit to push. Im walking around really down and its really bothering me. So i hope i can get over it ssome time soon. Ok dont really have much more to say.

imtrying25 wrote on 02 Dec 2009 22:13:


Welcome back!  There's a reason that your name is not "Imsucceeding."  Hashem only wants us to try.  You'll get the spirit back, b'Ezras Hashem, after a few days clean.  Allow yourself to detox first, and the spirit will not be long in coming!

Isolation sucks lemons, doesn't it?
We, however, see right through the crapola going on with you now, to the good in you, imtrying25. All the "down" can't fool us.
Now, if I could find a way to be aware of that when I'm feeling down, that'd really be something!
But hey, that's why our friends can't be ourselves, I guess...

 I think the YH has something against the tryers...I fell today too. The same exact way. Was up all night..etc
We gotta show the menuval that he won't win. We'll take the fall and use it to our advantage!! I decided to make a red line, to eliminate p*rn entirely. Maybe you can do something about your filter...Just don't let it get you down!! It's exactly what the yh wants!
Look at your mountain...You've climbed so much in so little time. So you fell back a few steps, so what?? Look how far you've come..
as we all say on GUE,
He may have won the battle, but he will not win the war...
GTG

i'mtrying we really missed you over here.
falling is part of climbing, btw. i feel like this is just a game of snakes and ladders... and some people get really lucky and get to the top really fast.
but other people keep going up and down and up and down.... until they finally get to the top.
just keep working, and NEVA EVA GIVE UP!
you know, you came back an had your first clean day, when trying fell...
something is freaky...

Wow i almost forgot about how great this forum is. The immediate responses and the warming words help more than any of you can imagine. And let me tell you something Dov its been all lemons this past week. Its hard man, its really hard. And it aint gettin easier. I feel like i wanna get over this thing once and for all but dont have what it takes. Imtrying imtrying imtrying but ive gotta suceed sometime, no kedusha??? And i know what some of you are probaly gonna respond. Then well your not trying the way your supposed to or something like that. I feel like im fighting mike tyson and hes got my ear in his mouth! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

imtrying25 wrote on 02 Dec 2009 22:29:


Success is up to Hashem, we've just got to do our part.  But doing our part does not mean fighting this monster head on, which is impossible.