Hello everyone??? Being that i dont get much attention on my thread ill have to keep myself entertained. Ok so hello imtrying25. Mondays are usually very hard for me. I dont know why. I just have noticed a pattern that i usually fall on mondays. So todays monday and im hoping ill make it. Ive been feeling much different this time round. B"H it doesnt seem as hard as the first few times. I think im changing my attitude. Thanx to Dov for that. Oh and Uri. They help you understand what to focus on. And rage letting you know that we dont understand everything nor do we have to and try to keep things simple. And then there the never ending love from R Guard and 7up. And theres also the endless chizuck that i get from sisters. I thought 9 was more than enough but i now have three more. Although i dont get much directly from them , which btw i understand fully, i get a tremendous amount from reading their threads and daily posts. So all in all ive got this new family which is here solely for the purpose pf getting me through this horrible addiction. I feel so blessed. B"H ive never felt tht i was missing love from my biological family but to have two loving familys what can be better!! HOdu LaHashem Ki Tov Ki LeOlam Chasdo. Now ive got to do my part and thats to overcome my addiction.
Talking about Rage you should know i think hes a tzaddik. A tzaddik gomer. Although he doesnt like when you say these things to him its true. Or maybe its even more true because of the fact thatr he doesnt want to hear it. It reminds me of the story i heard about this guy that was working on being an anav for all his life. Finally after many years and after he felt he reached the summit he went ahead and put a sign on his house CITYS BIGGEST ANAV. Anyways this is the exact opposite with rage. All the things hes doing , from giving up 72 days of his to giving tzeddakah to gye, all so that another yiddishe maideleh another yiddishe neshamah can overcome its addiction , its absolutly beautiful. Like Mom says a true sign of ahavas chinam. And when we give ahavas chinam we get ahavas chinam from Hashem. Although we may not be doing what we should be he loves us anyways. And even more now. And thats all thanks to Rage!!! Habib is so lucky. I really hope and i know with rage its gonna happen, that they should be zoche to climb this mountain together and just keep on adding to the Kiddush Hashem that this site and all the people involved in it are making.
Anyways those are just some of the thoughts going through my mind to day. Ok so long and ill get back to you.