dear shlomo, find what worked for you in those periods that you kept clean, and keep those methods up
your neshomo is to dear to let it roll in mud
try every method possible, the goal is not the method, the goal is keeping clean for one day
then for one more day, and so forth

Good to hear from you.  You may not realize it, but when you keep posting, even if it seems to you like you might be letting us down, or feeling ashamed or whatever, actually, if you just keep on posting, when we fall, and we read that you too are having a hard time of it, we don't feel so alone.  We can put our fall in the context that all of us here are just trucking as best we can.  So no matter what you give us chizuk.

Hatzlocho.  Keep in touch

hey shmeichel and 1daat,
thanks for the posts. they both really mean a lot and its definitely a great feeling knowing that I can fight this battle with others on my side.

So i've been trying to figure out a way to prevent even trying to tamper with my filters etc. so i decided to write up a rough draft of a neder i want to make (using the taphsik method) thats much more serious than my past one.

If I want to look at pritzus online or be mz"l in the next 7 days I have to first either:
1) Review the entire Hakdama to Mesillas Yesharim out loud, or;
2) Go for a 2 mile run, or;
3) Say Tikkun HaKlali

If I look at pritzus or am mz"l after doing 1 of these, I will give $5 to tzedakah and not use my computer for the rest of the day/night. If I dont do one of these 3 (provided I remember the shevuah), I will give $20 to tzedakah, say all of Tehillim over the course of the coming week, and run 3 miles at least once in the coming week.

the dollar values are a little low, but seeing as im just a student without a steady source of income, losing any money is not really an option. if anyone has any feedback, I'd love to hear it, and hopefully this can help me remember day to day that this is a taivah we can all overcome.

its a bit complicated
its a double method
123 is in order to open the door to p&m
and the rest is a punishment
my humble opinion is to remove 123, and raise the punishment

gut voch

so i went ahead and made the neder today that extends for the next week. i didnt change too much of it, just some wording here or there.

and shmeichel, the reason that i have this double method in place is because im afraid if i dont remember the neder until after falling, it'll just drag me down. and in terms of time, effort and money, this onesh is already pushing the limits.

with Hashem's help i should be able to make it, one day at a time.

hatzlocha rabbah.

wishing you a healthy clean year