Hey Tzadikim,

I'm a 21 yr old single guy in yeshiva/college. Ive been struggling with p*()n and motzei zera levatala for about 7 years.

I "tried " many times to stop, but now im really giving it a real shot. I finally realize its not just the yetzer hara, its a serious addiction.

So ive been "clean now for 7 days , boruch hashem  Hope this lasts!

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Its crazy I thought for years that I could stop if I wanted to, I just always had an open computer to see whatever I wanted. I realize that I CANT stop whenever I want!

It takes hard work, ups and downs, crying to hashem and speaking to the great people on this amazing site! ;D

(I need to be in control before I start going out, which i plan to do within the next few months)

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Dear BeStrong88,

Welcome! Please feel at home. We are one big GYE family!

The most important thing to remember is that if chas veshalom you fall, your clean days still count, they are not lost, and you aren't back at square one. You must pick yourself up and continue to stay clean.

Best of luck.

boruch Hashem 9 days clean!  :D

There were a few times the past few days which I saw an add of a not properly dressed girl and was really tempted to click on it.

i told myself first of all I want to right 10 days tommorow... not I fell and have to start over. Next thing i did was close the internet.

Im so relived and proud of myself!

I hope to continue on this holy path, with the help of g-d and this site

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Ahhh

Shabbos Kodesh! Its such an  amazing feeling to have gone through a full week of being clean. thank you HASHEM!!

Im in double digits! :D- 10 days

Shabbos is a Yom Menucha it is a day we must all recharge our spiritual batteries and take in all the kedusha our neshama's can hold.

Chazal say all bracha is a result of the previous shabbos. Although Shabbos is not a time for bekashos( requesting from HKBH) it is most definitely a time to think about how we

gained or lost in the past week.
In fact shabbos is an extremely enjoyable mitzva.Singing a Zemer on shabbos

is one of the most uplifting experiences I beleive one can have... Close your eyes and allow the Kedusha to enter your soul,through the words of Lecha dodi or Libi Uvsari

Have a great Shabbos

I fell on friday..

I was struggling for a while with my Y"H , i took a walk to try to clear my head.

OK well i need to get up and keep fighting

...

I keep on falling!

I hate this!

I only made it 3 days , I dont know why but it seems on fri im the most prone to a fall.

Heeellpp! :'(

Just installed K9 hope it works:)

Have a great week

Please try not to hate yourself. Don't try to hard. Focus on enjoyable things in your life and make strong fences. It takes a lot of courage to post a fall. I am very impressed.

Ironically, the trick to winning this fight is NOT TO FIGHT!

Just realize that the Yeitzer Hara is too powerful for us and that we can't have anything to do with it.

Once we start thinking WE are FIGHTING IT, then we're especially in danger.

Thanks guys for the support,

The trick as you said, which is 100% correct is, to realize that we are not in control, rather we must try our hardest to be good, and tell HK"BH that we are doing our part, please give us the strength and ability to pull through our struggles, the Ikar is the WE ALLOW HASHEM 2 control eh situation and not ourselves, blc the Yetzer is one tough cookie..

Thanks again

BeStrong88,

letting HKB"H in and helping us out is a huge yesod, shkoyach for that chop. the war is won when we fall and get back up again, we learn from our mistakes, otherwise we're not learning anything at all. you're doing great, keep it up!

and, ah!, shabbos zemiros! right on! "Hatzel macharei lifrosh min hashabbos lvilti tihiyeh sagur mayhem sheshes yamim hamikablim kedusha mishabbos kodshecha..." gutte voch!

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